lovewho.u.r:
Funny...that is a song.....I love.
Mother Mary comes to me speaking words of wisdom let it be....let it be....
When ever I play the Beatles I always feel happier!

 
     Dear Diane
       
 
~with love and regards~
   Buba,Goran's mom
 

Hey Jude,this one is for you!
Listening to this song I feel young again

 
Thank you Buba! Anything to make us feel young again..yes?
 
With Love, Jude

Love is the only way

Anything to make us feel young again..yes?

 
          Dear Jude

When my son died the funeral home offered a DVD option. We chose a couple of dozen of our favorite pictures of him and a song to back them. The song was "Let It Be" be the Beatles.

Death cannot kill that which lives forever.
William Penn

Dear Donna,
That sound like a lovely idea.
 
Love, Jude

Love is the only way

Dear Donna,
 
How nice I love this be of 'let it be'...
 
And when the night is cloudy, there is still a light, that shines on me,
shine until tomorrow, let it be.
 

 
Love to all Sandraxx
 

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love~and be loved in return♥♥  


 

 

louie : 
 When my son died the funeral home offered a DVD option. We chose a couple of dozen of our favorite pictures of him and a song to back them. The song was "Let It Be" be the Beatles.

 
Dear Donna,
that touches my heart...it is beautifull  song... when my son died the funeral home offered only 3 themes for music;
I choosed this one ... it is so sad and painfull  remembering that day....
 
 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YENDUxBIq4w
 
~with regards to all~
  Buba,Goran's mom

"What you leave behind is not what is engraved in stone monuments,
but what is woven into the lives of others." Pericles

Buba,
Sorry you were limited with the music for Goran's funeral/service. We were allowed to choose what we wanted, as long as we  provided a CD, so we picked a variety of music that was meaningful to us...and to our son, Jake. Jake was a musician. During the service we had a Simon and Garfunkle tune (his dad's choice) and a Grateful Dead tune, "Ripple", which was my choice.
 
His funeral was 20 months ago today...so, yeah, sad memories. I am in a bad place lately.
 
Peace,
Donna

Death cannot kill that which lives forever.
William Penn

Sandra and Jude,
Yes, "Let It Be" is a beautiful song with so much meaning to my family.

Peace,
Donna
 
P.S. No fancy animations or pretty pictures on my posts, either. We just recently took a leap into the 90's and got satellite television.

Death cannot kill that which lives forever.
William Penn

 

His funeral was 20 months ago today...so, yeah, sad memories. I am in a bad place lately.

Oh my dear Donna,
how I understand you very well...My son passed away 34 months ago...
I am in a bad place too and sometimes I think I can not live any more,
but my younger son is my strength and I must live for him...and for keeping
alive memories about my dear Goran...

with love and sadness in my heart,
Buba,Goran's mom

"What you leave behind is not what is engraved in stone monuments,
but what is woven into the lives of others." Pericles

Dear Donna . . .
I have read back upon your story
of the loss of your dear son, Jake,
and keep you especially in my thoughts and prayers
just now . . .
Many of us have those dreaded 'anniversaries' . . .
(I have them too) . . .
I am sorry to hear that you are especially grieving now.
It often comes upon us when least expected,
and not always associated with an anniversary . . .
if we honour and respect it,
and allow ourselves to ride the wave in peace and trust,
it will pass,
and bring us always to fuller acceptance and understanding
with love . . .
sparrow

everything counts... ♥

ORIGINAL: bm

Dearest Xanadue,
it is good to see you are posting here.
You are often in my thoughts. I think that you are one brave and strong woman,
thank you for being here for all of us broken hearted and helping&showing us how to fight
against and with all our sorrows and pains...
 
~with many regards and love to you~
         Buba,Goran's mom

 
Wondering, Doubt, not feeling strong or brave:
  Good Morning:    Just a thought?  Some say: "  God is with you"  and on the radio Monday morning was a speaker about how people say that the people that go to Heaven are looking down upon the ones here, and that is to feel better,  giving scriptures that they are not looking down,  she went on with many other things along these lines .  I began to wonder alot about God, such as where was he on the night it happened,  he didn't hear the sheer scream for help, nor did he hear any of the days and nights that followed while Austin was at All Children's??? I trusted in him, knowing he was the only one who could help and fix Austin, that didn't happen??  The Plan,  He has a plan and he knows that plan since before we arrived and he will take away sorrow and wipe tears away???   Oh yes and then there is the instant gratification as humans or certainly we are given a time frame when we expect something to be done with a problem, call any customer service outlet for whatever, and there is always 2-5 or 5-10 business days answers, and then there is the matter of His time, not knowing what that looks like, how long is a day, in my counting of days its 9 months and 4 days which has seemed longer than all the time I have been on Earth.  I hold on to the stories  I have read or that were sent me, one sticks out- where I had 20 mos  vs. 15 mins, but I wonder would it have been better off to not have at all??
THen there is He is not a punishing God, sure feels that way, like torture of some sort.  I am left with such a void, such a pain that is dabilitating, and to watch my husband in sorrow and pain is even harder--that hurts even more....
As the time goes by others are back in their worlds of normal living, i try not to make it a constant focus and I believe they think I am the way I was and its all returned or enough time has went by she should be Ok,  no i can't change it and just have to deal, so I tell myself there is so much more out there, bigger than this, there are so many facing horrible horrible horrible ( i don't have a word to explain that)circumstances, and while I can see and count numerous Blessings, which is supposed to be that they come from Him,  but we have worked to earn and while he can snatch it all away, and He has provided many scriptures refer to that, I am not finding any tangible relativity that tells me God is with me, so you may say that is Faith, just believing?? 
THen there is the aspect of one is placed exactly where one is to be, thats a whole other wondering area for me.
While I know i will never be given comprehension or wisdom of this until ????in the here and now I turn away from so many things because it makes me think of Austin, like going in Walmart, i certainly don't want to pass the baby aisle, nor the toy isle, nor see any little boys, certain food aisles bother me, going places not if there is a remote chance that there are strollers, don't really like to be out in public events,  don't watch alot of the shows on TV much that I used to watch so my whole world is upside down, from what i used to know it be, i knew what each day was to bring now i don't make plans past the day i am on really, i go on each day because i am here, but that is wearing thin.  I can't exactly get there and come back after knowing everything is what we think- like a do over., or a One Day Heaven Pass
I don't have the right to ask for any proof there is no mony back guarantee and if dissatisfied register a complaint,never go back again or go back to familiar surroundings, none of that is possible!!!! 
So I wonder how some get a miracle??  which goes back to what my father always said:  "Life isn't fair"
While I ask What do you want me to learn from this?  Maybe I wasn't in class when He provided this??
Maybe I have just gone pyscho .
Allthough I still believe in the chapel at ALL Children's Hospital, he provided me with a itsy bitsy Peak-
(if you have read in the Journal from Austin's website, thats explained)
 
One last wonderment-- everyday on the news there is just another thing that sounds like Revelations:
the wars, the weather- floods, earthquakes, tornadoes, very cold and icey, the children going missing, threats of using nuclear, or agent warfare, sunami's and typhones, the crumbling of the economy, the speaking of a Global World Bank, the praying for Peace, Religion taken out of schools, removing In God WE TRUST from money, same sex marriage, food shortages, and now a Pandemic Swine FLU????
Just naming those things makes me think I am glad Austin doesn't have to go through this stuff, and i just Pray for my girls trying to grow up in it and my son smack in the middle of it.
I pray everyone can stay protected from the Swine Flu -- So Sorry this went on and on about wondering
Thank You Buba-Goran's mom for lifting my ego , truly not deserving of the high regard you have said,
for my path is going astray and I turn to all those of wisdom 
I also Thank all of you for your kind responses of encouragement and your funny posts, and that Wonderful Virtual Cyber Cafe,
Sincerest Appreciation--Thanking you for your candle Prayers for my family
 
One Day,   SOMEDAY

 

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Dear Xanadue,

I can see that you are still on-line at what must be a very late time for you. I can feel some of your grief. Words cannot comfort at such moments. Let me just put my arms round you, not saying anything (I couldn´t do it well in English, anyhow). I am going to light a candle for you, here in my living-room, keeping your sorrow in my heart... May sleep give you relief and new strength... And maybe tomorrow, when you look at the signs of spring, this will give you just a little comfort: 

"Always
when in spring
the trees
give birth
to delicate buds

I know
that I will
meet You again

in another World."

Paul G. Meister

Much Love to you,
Juliana

 

Dear Xanadue, I join with Juliana in reaching out to you across the miles. I too can not offer you any words of comfort.
No....Life isn't fair.....it's how it is. God didn't do this to you or any of us. As you describe so well, we think a solution should be there by right, but the only solution is in our own hearts.
 

My heart goes out to you♥...♥
 
With Love,
Jude

Love is the only way

like going in Walmart, i certainly don't want to pass the baby aisle, nor the toy isle, nor see any little boys, certain food aisles bother me, going places not if there is a remote chance that there are strollers, don't really like to be out in public events,  don't watch alot of the shows on TV much that I used to watch so my whole world is upside down, from what i used to know it be, i knew what each day was to bring now i don't make plans past the day i am on really, i go on each day because i am here, but that is wearing thin. 

My Dearest Xanadue,your words are words that I feared so much and maybe still will
at times who knows...
 
It's hard to have 'faith' at times it really is and Jesus would be the first to say this is ok,I
don't mean this is an hurtful way just in a gentle way Xanadue.
 
I am not sure why children are laid to rest before their parents as this was never ever part
of our plan not ever.
 
Like the ladies above me I would love nothing more than to comfort you right now and be
your Cuddle blanket I really would.
 
I am not the best to talk about God but I do feel he was there when our children needed
him as he took thier pain (if any) from them he really did and led them gently into a place
that has no sadness just shear shear light and peace.
 
This will never change things in our dark dark times  but Xanadue we all need faith be it from a shoulder
to cry on or a gentle hug from a forum family member,or whatever it takes to bring us back to light.
 
I wish I could stop your pain but in truth I can only be there for you to hold your hand and let you know I care.
 
Xanadue,there are indeed many many things in this world that are bad and not right but Beauty
will out weigh all of this as beauty is love and love is what holds this world up.
 
Our children are such a big part of beauty as we are too we really are.
 
I must go now but I had to come and give you some xxxxxx

    

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love~and be loved in return♥♥  


 

I too, dear Xanadue
wish I could reach across the miles
and give you a hug.
Nothing compares to the feeling of empty arms . . .
If you allow it,
you will eventually heal from this loss . . .
with support from those who love you,
with time,
with gently care and patience
with love . . .
sparrow
♥

everything counts... ♥

"Always
when in spring
the trees
give birth
to delicate buds

I know
that I will
meet You again

in another World."

Paul G. Meister



This is really beautiful Juilana and I firmly belive it is  true.
 
Thank you ♥
 
 
 
 
you will eventually heal from this loss . . .
with support from those who love you,
with time,
with gently care and patience


Thank you Sparrow for reminding us we can and we will in time..
 
♥
 
 

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love~and be loved in return♥♥  


 

Daer Donna,
 
I keep you in my thoughts....with a message of tender embraces sent from heaven to answer those questions for you......for you to gain wisdom and heal and so go on to share this with all you meet and greet in your life. May your faith be increased.....and  reason shared  within your heart through your personal union with God. May you truly gain asense of his being OK.....and also work through what does not feel as it once did for you. May you regain the sparkle and light....and also honor your reflection of loss as this is love in action within your very being. This is gratefully accepted as gift your tender sensitive  heart. May you know to never  change ...you are love. One day you will be able to extend yourself....and be in places like this walmart....and be able to be with it....without.....such sorrowful eyes and thoughts.....it will come.  And be a in the grace that God will gift to you.  Be anxious for grace.....His presence IS with you and it was there then too. It is always there.  Gently invite it into your life....let go of the questions.....and be in His Loving Grace.  When this sorrow comes know sweetheart....His presence IS right with you....right now through all you go through always, yes always with you.
 
Peace, Love and Joy,
Diane

Grateful to be here!
What a gift and connection builder!
Love and Gratitude,
Love who You Are

 
Hello  to all: 
 
Previously I wrote Wondering Doubt and had a thought of some say God is with You
In Response to "God is with You"  Thanking a very Special Friend that sent this to me ♥ 
Presented by Walk in the Word
 
Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10
Trust is the antidote to anxiety; it's the resolution of worry and the destruction of fear. Trust is the act of my will to give my burdens to God. It's like a muscle--as you exercise it, trust gets stronger.
Trust is walking forward moment by moment, having rolled your burden onto God. You've no doubt said, "I gave it to God once, but here it is again in my grip." When you sense that you've taken it back again, get back on your knees, get the burden back on God, get on your feet again, and continue to trust.
When you off-load your burden on God, you can pick up a promise from His Word. Second Peter 1:4 tells us that "he has granted to us his precious and very great promises, so that through them you may become partakers of the divine nature, having escaped from the corruption that is in the world." There are literally hundreds of promises that apply to your specific burden. God's Word is filled with treasure.
I'm claiming Isaiah 41:10 right now for a burden I leaving at God's feet. "Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." There it is! God is doing this whole thing with one hand tied behind His back. He's not stressed or strained. He's not worried about what to do. He has absolutely no capacity limits!
Isaiah continues, "Behold, all who are incensed against you shall be put to shame and confounded; those who strive against you shall be as nothing and shall perish. You shall seek those who contend with you, but you shall not find them; those who war against you shall be as nothing at all. For I, the Lord your God, hold your right hand; it is I who say to you, ‘Fear not, I am the one who helps you'" (vv. 11-13).
Take a moment to read that awesome promise again. Trust means you anchor your heart in the reality of God's awareness of your situation. He sees more than you can ever see. God, who loves you and is committed to you, will not disappoint you now or in the future if you put your weight fully on Him
 
Would you say that God works through and uses people for his Greater Plan?  Glory  be to him and blessed are they  he chooses 
I thought I would share for those going through any storm- as I find myself stumbling and find the burden back in my lap, I like that I can give it back to God.
While it is very difficult to trust in what you can not see and touch, it is better to believe and Live  in the hope than to go on and Live  without any hope.
 
I also wanted to post this for Sandra to give to her sister perhaps this can help her to step forward when she is tired....
 
I also wanted to extend my appreciation and Gratitude to those who care to share, Light candles for Mark and my Family as well as others and to all those Praying.
My prayer request is that God provide just what you need today, tomorrow and Always
 
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Daer Donna,
 
I keep you in my thoughts....with a message of tender embraces sent from heaven to answer those questions for you......for you to gain wisdom and heal and so go on to share this with all you meet and greet in your life. May your faith be increased.....and  reason shared  within your heart through your personal union with God. May you truly gain asense of his being OK.....and also work through what does not feel as it once did for you. May you regain the sparkle and light....and also honor your reflection of loss as this is love in action within your very being. This is gratefully accepted as gift your tender sensitive  heart. May you know to never  change ...you are love. One day you will be able to extend yourself....and be in places like this walmart....and be able to be with it....without.....such sorrowful eyes and thoughts.....it will come.  And be a in the grace that God will gift to you.  Be anxious for grace.....His presence IS with you and it was there then too. It is always there.  Gently invite it into your life....let go of the questions.....and be in His Loving Grace.  When this sorrow comes know sweetheart....His presence IS right with you....right now through all you go through always, yes always with you.
 
Peace, Love and Joy,
Diane

Dear Diane,  Lovewho..ur
I love that you wrote  to Donna with wisdom and insight, ,  for  it helps me to read this posting when I need a liitle encouragement to finish what I now consider my very longest marathon.  I just wish i could settle the painfulness , for example having a baby changes the whole family dynamics, going through the nine months of anxiety and then the pain to birth the child and then the joy even though there are many tirals and tribulations that can and usually will follow, i have been at this 9 months and a week , i have been doing the pain, so according to what i just wrote is not birthing to happen and then the JOY,  I may be impatient,  but for most as soon as the mother looks at that baby most
of the pain is forgotten, so what seems to be a similiar process  is not going according ly???
 
I am so sorry to go on and on, I was told in 5th grade I would be a great book writer, as I always wrote stories.
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