Xanadue,
 
Thank You...
 
Your posts are never too long....keep going on. Your honest and heart felt  writing is pure sweet love. Tonight your words were full of encouragement
and brought me such uplifting. You often do this to me. Thank you so very much.
 
Love Always,
Diane
 
 

Grateful to be here!
What a gift and connection builder!
Love and Gratitude,
Love who You Are

 

Wondering, Doubt, not feeling strong or brave:

Dearest Xanadue,
sorry if I hurt your feelings, it was not my intention.
Living in the similar situation,fighting to go through day by day ,like a robot,
asking the similar questions as you,struggling with pain and grief and everyday's things as you ,
I just wanted to say that you gave strength to all of us through your posts even if you do not see that.
I will keep to light  candles for you and your family
wishing that light of those candles give a bit of peace and warmth
to your broken heart....
                      
Sending you regards and love all over the ocean
Buba,Goran's mom

Would you say that God works through and uses people for his Greater Plan? Glory be to him and blessed are they he chooses I thought I would share for those going through any storm- as I find myself stumbling and find the burden back in my lap, I like that I can give it back to God. While it is very difficult to trust in what you can not see and touch, it is better to believe and Live in the hope than to go on and Live without any hope.

 
Dear Xanadue thank you so much for your post(s) like Diane ,they help me  in many ways.
 
I am sorry to hear you are stumbling it's very hard at times it really is.I do think though through each fall we stand up and dust ourselves off again and maybe even grow ....
 
I smiled when you said you can give it back to God.I never thought this was possible Xanadue but through my family I have learned  to give Jesus a little part of my own burden and in time I really hope I can give him more.It's funny really to see me write this not in a horrid way in a loving way.
 
 
Xanadue ,God/Jesus does indeed have a greater plan and through his shepherds we gain so much.
 
It is very hard to trust in what you can not see or touch but Xanadue I have actually felt Jesus and he has touched me in ways I never ever thought possible.Having said all of this I am not 100% sure I believe the way I long to ,but something deep down tells me I do but I am not sure what this is.
 
Hope is such a meaningful word  are  are faith and love
 
 
Take good care Xanadue and thank you for sharing ,as sharing is caring .
 
Love and warm hugs,Sandraxxxx
 
 

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love~and be loved in return♥♥  


 

Dearest Buba,
 

 
you give so much of this to us all as well  ' I just wanted to say that you gave strength to all of us through your posts even if you do not see that'.
 
It's so hard at times Buba to be the ones left behind ,I can only hope in time  Goran's dear dear
Mother smiles again from your soft and gentle Heart.
 
Love you Buba lots,Sandraxxxx
 
 

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love~and be loved in return♥♥  


 

It is very hard to trust in what you can not see or touch but Xanadue I have actually felt Jesus and he has touched me in ways I never ever thought possible.Having said all of this I am not 100% sure I believe the way I long to

 
Dear Sandra,
All of us have these doubts. Part of us can't believe such things are possible.
That's when we need to Trust.
 
With Love,
Jude ♥

Love is the only way

"Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." There it is! God is doing this whole thing with one hand

 
Dear Xanadue,
 
You are in my heart.... Hold on to the encouragement of all that is around you.
 
These words  are so very dear to my heart. At these times we must hold on to these even as we try so hard to gain understanding....to cope within the so very unconsolable loss. 
 
You are going through the toughest thing ever.
 
Love you,
Diane

Grateful to be here!
What a gift and connection builder!
Love and Gratitude,
Love who You Are

 
 
For this Upcoming Mother's Day   A reflection  on was and is
 
I heard this song on the radio today and while it was one of my favorites, this time it sounded so very different or I heard it very differently    
 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3mGb9yLGK8M 
  


Theres a lady whos sure
All that glitters is [style="font-weight: 400; font-size: 15px; color: blue! important; font-family: 'times new roman', serif; position: static"]gold
And shes buying a [style="font-weight: 400; font-size: 15px; color: blue! important; font-family: 'times new roman', serif; position: static"]stairway to heaven

.
When she gets there she knows
If the [style="font-weight: 400; font-size: 15px; color: blue! important; font-family: 'times new roman', serif; position: static"]stores are all closed
With a word she can get what she came for.
Ooh, ooh, and shes buying a [style="font-weight: 400; font-size: 15px; color: blue! important; font-family: 'times new roman', serif; position: static"]stairway to heaven.

Theres a sign on the wall
But she wants to be sure
cause you know sometimes words have two meanings.
In a [style="font-weight: 400; font-size: 15px; color: blue! important; font-family: 'times new roman', serif; position: static"]tree by the brook
Theres a songbird who sings,
Sometimes all of our thoughts are misgiven.
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it makes me wonder.

Theres a feeling I get
When I look to the [style="font-weight: 400; font-size: 15px; color: blue! important; font-family: 'times new roman', serif; position: static"]west,
And my [style="font-weight: 400; font-size: 15px; color: blue! important; font-family: 'times new roman', serif; position: static"]spirit

is crying for leaving.
In my thoughts I have seen
[style="font-weight: 400; font-size: 15px; color: blue! important; font-family: 'times new roman', serif; position: static"]Rings of smoke through the [style="font-weight: 400; font-size: 15px; color: blue! important; font-family: 'times new roman', serif; position: static"]trees,
And the voices of those who standing looking.
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it really makes me wonder.

And its whispered that soon
If we all call the tune
Then the piper will lead us to reason.
And a [style="font-weight: 400; font-size: 15px; color: blue! important; font-family: 'times new roman', serif; position: static"]new day will dawn
For those who stand long
And the forests will echo with laughter.

If theres a bustle in your hedgerow
Dont be alarmed now,
Its just a [style="font-weight: 400; font-size: 15px; color: blue! important; font-family: 'times new roman', serif; position: static"]spring clean

for the may [style="font-weight: 400; font-size: 15px; color: blue! important; font-family: 'times new roman', serif; position: static"]queen.
Yes, there are two paths you can go by
But in the long run
Theres still time to change the road youre on.
And it makes me wonder.

Your head is humming and it wont go
In case you dont know,
The pipers calling you to join him,
Dear lady, can you hear the wind blow,
And did you know
Your stairway lies on the whispering wind.

And as we wind on down the road
Our shadows taller than our soul.
There walks a lady we all know
Who shines [style="font-weight: 400; font-size: 15px; color: blue! important; font-family: 'times new roman', serif; position: static"]white light and wants to show
How evrything still turns to [style="font-weight: 400; font-size: 15px; color: blue! important; font-family: 'times new roman', serif; position: static"]gold.
And if you listen very hard
The tune will come to you at last.
When all are one and one is all
To be a rock and not to roll.

And shes buying a stairway to heaven. 
 


And the voices of those who standing look.
Yes, there are two paths you can go by
But in the long run
Theres still time to change the road youre on.
And it makes me wonder
And if you listen very hard
The tune will come to you at last.
When all are one and one is all
To be a rock and not to roll.

And shes buying a stairway to heaven
 
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Yes there are two paths and while I want a stairway to Heaven???  I still have reason to be here!!!!
 
Yes, there are two paths you can go by
But in the long run
Theres still time to change the road youre on.
And it makes me wonder.

 
For this Mother's Day:  Having thoughts and Feelings in two places is a very new experience:
 
Child #1  Mark  adult son now serving in Military
Child #2  I don't know I never met
Child #3  Ashley 13  Mom doesn't know anything
Child #4  Sierra who will celebrate her 10th Birthday  still calls me mommy Her Birthday just happens to fall
Child #5  Met in an ultrasound was very tiny,  after 13 weeks went to Heaven, never held by mom
Child #6  Austin, who we called our miracle Baby Boy, called Mommom for 20 months, now Angel Austin in Loving Memory
 
Then I am still a daughter, and have the Blessing of being able to share with my MOm,
so as I look at this equation:  there are Many Positive Blessings and Negative Sorrow,  conclusion would be
BitterSweet
 
WLAP to all   Enjoy Your Day even though every day is Mother's Day ♥
 
Always Look for the silver lining in the cloud or the Blessings of the Day, when the storm cloud comes look for the ray of SunLight
 
Believe to Achieve   
    
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
    
  
  
  

The Gift of Austin
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WLAP, Austin's mommy
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Dearest Xanadue hello,
 
this message is from Diane...lovewho..r
 
a picture sometimes can express. that feeling  of impossibility...the trust we need when as we see and feel something else.....inside of us......all we can do is trust in God to see us through it.......to give it to God as many times as needed till we make it there.......
 
  
 
Love Always,
Diane 
 

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love~and be loved in return♥♥  


 

Dearest Xanadue,
 
Your post really moved me...
 
I wish  things were different for you I can feel your pain in your words.
It must be so hard to be a Mother of 6 yet only two are with you at home
right now.Yes Mothering Sunday will be bittersweet for you in many ways,
but each one of your children will always live within your heart dear Xanadue.
 
 
I think we are all building a stairway to Heaven,but at times
we wish it was an escalator.
 
I know you are strugging right now and I can understand why,
but like dear Diane said...
 
all we can do is trust in God to see us through it,
to give it to God as many times as needed till we make it there.
 
I will be holding you close to me this Sunday dear Xanadue in prayer .
 
I hope tomorrow passes gently for you I really do.
 
Love and warm gentle hugs,Sandraxxxxx
 
                                                                                      Dandelions from Heaven

 
 

 

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love~and be loved in return♥♥  


 

 
Dear Grateful Post'ers
 
I wanted to say Thanking You so Much for your responses, prayers, wise wise reminders, the compassion is just what Jesus taught and wants us to do towards one another.
 
I have looked back through much of the writings in this thread and I see so many Gifts amongst the tears, it reminds me of a sunshower, and you know what they say comes after a sunshower:
 
 
 
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WLAPTAG
 

The Gift of Austin
http://www.totsites.com/tot/babyaustinajr
WLAP, Austin's mommy
http://www.musicalcreations.biz/samples.html

Good Morning Xanadue,
 
Thank you for your lovely picture's ,I have saved them.
You are right dear Xanadue....
 reading this thread makes me feel we are such a
beauitful Gratefulness family  in so many ways.....
When the clouds come thick and fast ,there will always be people
to help you reach that rainbow..and how beauiful and special this is.
 
Love to each and everyone of you,Sandraxx
 
I u love this song and yes every cloud does have a silver lining..
 
Hold me close, don't let me go, oh no
I, yes I love you and I think that you know
Do ya know
With your love light shining
Every clouds got a silver lining
So hold me close, don't let me go

Hold me close, don't let me go, oh no
You and me, yes our love it will stop the show
Do you know
With your love light shining clearly
It's so good to have-a-ya near me
So hold me close, don't let me go

And if that road gets weary, oh I love you
Waiting here if you need me
'Cause I love the things that you do

So hold me close, don't let me go,oh no
You see I, yes I love ya and I think that you know
Do you know
With your love light shining
Every clouds got a silver lining
So hold me close, don't let me go

And if that road gets tougher, oh I love you
No I'll  never let ya suffer 'cause I love the things that you do
So hold me close, don't let me go oh no
You and me, yes our love it will grow and grow
Do you know
With your love light shining
Every cloud has a silver lining
So hold me close, hold me close, hold me close don't let me go

Hold me close
Closer girl
Hold me close
 
 

 

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love~and be loved in return♥♥  


 

Dear Xanadue . . .
Thank you for your heartfelt post . . .
I think that you have touched the essence of our experience
here on earth . . .
bitter sweet
with love . . .
sparrow

everything counts... ♥

Beautiful beautiful pictures
Diane and Sandra . . .
I did not see them until just now . . .
I still love dandelions

everything counts... ♥

Dearest Xandue,
just want to say that I am thinking of you and sending you many regards with love,
Buba,Goran's mom

"What you leave behind is not what is engraved in stone monuments,
but what is woven into the lives of others." Pericles

Dearest Buba that's such a beautiful and meaningful photo ..
 
thank you 
    

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love~and be loved in return♥♥  


 

Thank You to all for your Kind and Beautiful responses
 
Dear Lilsparrow, the one that has such encouragement,  like Vitamin C is to Orange Juice:
 
Thank You for the Beautiful Picture of the Butterfly with the Dandelion, interesting color of Butterfly as that is the color of the Balloon Butterfly I had for Austin at Easter??? and Recently Sandra sent a Poem on Dandelions, i just found that to be one of those aaahhhhaaaa moments
Its all posted on His little Website, the Poem is truly Beautiful and is in his Journal.
 
Dearest Sandra,  the Photo Queen (well one of them)
 
Such Beautiful Pictures you select as always,  and heartfelt writings,  I can tell you are seeing with the Eyes of Your Heart and Listening with Holy Spirit Ears,  You shall be Greatly REwarded is one of the Promises
 
Dearest BM:  A very Special one Indeed,
The picture is Truly truly a Blessing,  and One Day Someday I know we will see the Beauty of a Butterfly and a LadyBug together, not in a picture, I imagine the Butterfly on your right shoulder and the ladybug on top of your left hand. 
Thank You ALL so SO MUCH for your outstanding Pictures and Responses
My Prayer to each of you is May You Be Blessed this day and each day that follows.
 
If I ever get across the Pond, maybe we can do Coffee or Tea - with a GPS I am sure I can find a cafe  LOL 
 
One Day Some Day

The Gift of Austin
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WLAP, Austin's mommy
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xanadue


One thing is certainly for sure,  I would not have found such compassionate people all over, I would not have gotten out of my box- routine life, I would not be so freely sharing, I would still be bound by the chains of wrong focus, I would not be who I am today.  I am so GRATEFUL through the communication of a computer one can send out a message, console another, send a greeting card, light a candle, share a picture and care

 
Likewise dearest Xanadue and all....
 
 
 
    

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love~and be loved in return♥♥  


 

sandra67


Dearest Xanadue hello,
 
this message is from Diane...lovewho..r
 
a picture sometimes can express. that feeling  of impossibility...the trust we need when as we see and feel something else.....inside of us......all we can do is trust in God to see us through it.......to give it to God as many times as needed till we make it there.......
 
  
 
Love Always,
Diane 
 

Dear Diane,   The name of my Bestest school friend,
WOWWEE what a photo,  that is better than CALGONE take me away!!!!
I know if we just look at all the Beauty around us we see GOD and what he has created for us, and this is a glimpse of what is to come, Guess that is where stop and smell the Roses phrase came from,
I THANK YOU SO SO MUCH FOR YOUR ENCOURAGEMENT and CONFIDENCE
I would have to go with
ONE DAY SOMEDAY
 
WLAPTAG
PRAYERS OF BLESSINGS FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY THIS DAY AND EACH DAY
 

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WLAP, Austin's mommy
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Thankfulness and Austin's song.
First: I would like to express my sincerest Thank You to each
THanking each that light candles and say prayers for me and my family. That is how I must be going on, Thank You to those that care to share wisdom, teachings&♥
My Prayer for all is:
May every head look up to know the One and Only I Am, May each find their way and be Blessed, May Love, comfort, Healing and Rest be given to those inthe Storm♥
I pray each will receive the Blessings they need at the time of their need, upon turning it over to him, may you not fret and worry, may you believe he is able to provide- Just Trust Him.
THank you for your kindness  and your continued support and truthfulness.

As our family embarks on the one year milestone, I wanted to give my husband a special gift since his Birthday falls during the same month that Austin goes, hoping to help mend, heal if there is such a thing, comfort him whenever he is thinking of his precious little boy, and also that he may know How Sorry I am.
So I had a song done by Frances Drost, and I am ever so Thankful she graciously accepted this project and did an amazing Beautiful Song.
Listening to it I thought perhaps it can help to comfort others with some word changes of the name and date, it can be personalized to fit like a glove and give warmth.
I then took it one step further and did a video hoping to bring smiles of the Blessings we received during our Season with Austin.
Warning Longer than 5 mins-  Sorry, but have you ever known me to post short sweet and simple??
Hope this link  posts correctly, works and opens for you.
Sorry some of the photos were done with my cell phone, have low resolution I apologize.
  http://www.onetruemedia.com/shared?p=9045522ea82a1d1944d67f&skin_id=1602&utm_source=otm&utm_medium=email

Austin's Song* Gone Too SOON  



Austin's Song:  Gone Too Soon By Frances Drost:
Gone Too Soon


By Frances Drost


To everything there is a season
A deeper purpose, an unseen reason
A time for breathing, a time to cease
A time to laugh, a time to weep


Hey little buddy,  gone too soon
Came to us on November 2
We treasure every day we had with you,  
But you were gone too soon.
  
We saw your first step, we watched your first smile
We celebrated, with each new mile
When you said DaDa, and learned to walk    
You held back nothing, you gave it all


Hey little buddy,  gone too soon
Came to us on November 2
We treasure every day we had with you,  
But you were gone too soon.


Your little hands, your little feet
Your deep blue eyes and Your chunky cheeks
Majestic child, mellow and fun
Oh Austin, You're our baby, You're our son


Hey little buddy,  gone too soon
Came to us on November 2
We treasure every day we had with you,  
But you were gone too soon.

Frances Drost
Musical Creations
(717) 776-6474
www.francesdrost.com

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With Love and Prayers
May you Each Be Blessed: Xanadue

The Gift of Austin
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WLAP, Austin's mommy
http://www.musicalcreations.biz/samples.html

Dear,dear Xanadue,
your video touched me right to my  ....
So many beautiful memories      
and those so painful from hospital...
They bring tears to my eyes.
         
          Sending you  hugs and love
              Buba,Goran's mom