Dear Beryl . . .
As Edda has said,
only you know ultimately
what is best for you,
and it sounds as if you have a good balance.
From my own experience,
friends who have no relationships
with places on the internet,
tend to be skeptical . . .
there are so many horror stories that circulate
about the evils of the internet.
Perhaps this is part of your friends' concern.
I think you are doing so very well.
Nothing will remove your loss.
Time cannot go back to 'before' . . .
but moving towards healing
with grace and wisdom,
and the love of those around you,
whether they be human or canine
will serve you well.
You are very much
in my heart and in my prayers
dear Beryl.
Thank you for sharing your grief and your joy
with us 'internet people'.
We
do care
with much love . . .
sparrow