No... I don't want anything nuked... or nobled...

This goes far beyond the game...

If... you believe in the power of prayer...

I am requesting your prayers...

Some of you know this... For some this may be new...

About 5 years ago... I was told I had cancer... I was very suicidal back then and I ignored it... a year later... so sick... I went to the doctor... was told I had a year to live... well... I outlived all there predictions...

Things over the last few months have gotten worst... the radiation reduced but did not eliminate the cancer... I kinda hit a dead end...

A referral has allowed me to go to a special treatment center this week... They specialize in critical cases... I arrive there on Tuesday... They will draw lots of blood... On Wednesday... they will run lots of test... Thursday is a waiting... panic day... and Friday is D-Day... I will return on Saturday... Unless they want me to stay for surgery... or some other reason... if that happens... I may be gone for upwards of 3 weeks... and who knows from there...

I will bring my laptop... and wireless connection... and get on when I can... But who knows what will happen...

So... if you believe in the power of prayer... pray... or do whatever you believe in... to your understanding of miracles and hope...

Thanks... I want to say this has been fun... and that I will be back... and the news will be great... but I am so filled with fear I have little hope... and I am really struggling with this... add this to my Bi-Polar... and Self-Harm... Well I'm a mess...

So I won't say good-bye... I will say... I will talk to you again tomorrow...

Love...

Tariki...

Dear Tariki . . .
Your story is heartbreaking,
what I can grasp of it . . .
You will surely be in my thoughts and prayers
as you go through this treatment process.
I do believe in the power of prayer,
and you will find that many other people who visit this site
believe in it too.
Please come back and let us know how you are doing
with love and compassion . . .
sparrow

everything counts... ♥

Dear Tariki hello I have not met you before....
 
I will pary to Jesus for healing for you,you are going through so much
 
and I hope for a miracle for you too.
 
I can't take your fear away I'm sorry but please know I will keep a candle
 
burning of you and I pray you get peace of mind so soon.
 
Your right not to say goodbye as it's not goodbye it's just a see you very
 
soon.
 
Take good care,Sandraxxxxx
 

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love~and be loved in return♥♥  


 

Dear Tarika,
My heart goes out to you. I will certainly pray and light a candle for you.
 
Yes, do please keep in touch, and don't stop hoping!
 
With Love, Jude

Love is the only way

Tarika, while I was lighting your candle in the 'All' group, this came into my mind, so I thought I would share it with you.
 
"Be realistic......plan for a miracle."
'Osho'
 
On the candle I wrote "be optimistic", but it should be "realistic"
 
Jude

Love is the only way

ORIGINAL: buttington

Tarika, while I was lighting your candle in the 'All' group, this came into my mind, so I thought I would share it with you.

"Be realistic......plan for a miracle."
'Osho'

On the candle I wrote "be optimistic", but it should be "realistic"

Jude

 
OSHO is my favorite teacher... as the Bagwan Shree Rajneesh... He gave me my name... Prema Nishanto... Prema... means love... Nishanto... means coming out of darkness... He told me... that Love... would come out of my darkness... later... the name Tariki was added... Tariki... is the buddhist word meaning "other power" opposed to the buddhist word... jariki... self-power... So... There will be Love... coming out of darkness... as I rely on the other power... the unknown...
 
Your words made me cry.... and reminded me of the teaching in the Kabbalah... in the Book of Letters... That G-d... Counts the tears of women... Why... Because women are more sensitive... therefore they cry more... But G-d saves those tears... and in the end of days... will use those tears to bring healing to the world...... Thanks...

Dare to Dream...

(((((hugs))))) and i place you prayerfully within my heart.

with love.....

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Dear Tarika,
And so.....the linking of hearts! 
 
Wishing you Healing on a deep level.
 
Love, Jude

Love is the only way

Dear Tarika, welcome to the forum! My heart goes out to you as I read your story. Your fear is so very understandable, especially since uncerainty is so difficult to cope with. This is a good place to return to and share your concerns, fears and hopes. As you already can see from the previous posts, there are many ready to reach out to you and hold you in their hearts.
 
I'll keep you in my prayers and will light a candle for you!
 
Much love and warm hugs,
Edda

Peace and joy!

Dear Tariki,
 
Although I have never met you and I know nothing more than what you've posted on this site I pray this. I pray that G-d heal you and comfort you in your time of need.
 
What you are living thru makes us reflect on how human we are and how thankful we should all be for the life we have been given. 
 
Philippians 4:6-7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

 

Another sleepless night... In the morning I meet with my personal doctor and get the news... Good... Bad... or Ugly...

I am terrified... I mean that... You have... (and maybe you do)... have no idea the terror that fills my heart and mind...

I found this site a long time ago...

http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/candles.cfm?l=eng...

Would you do something silly for me... and light a candle for healing...

When it says selective group... Place in the PTN group...

Thanks...

Tariki...

 
Its so nice to see friends respond... It has been uplifting...
 
The news was awful... and I just am not sure how to speak the words yet...
 
will update later...

Dare to Dream...

Dear Tariki,
 
I have just lit another candle for you in the group you asked for.
 
with Love, Jude

Love is the only way

Dear Tarika,
 
I'll light another candle for you in the group you named.
I am so very sorry that you feel so badly. I wish i could put my arms around you, but it will  have to be long-distance.
 
Much love and warm (((hugs))),
Edda

Peace and joy!

Tarika, Dear, I cannot even begin to imagine how you are feeling. I pray that you have family around to support and assist you, to laugh with you and to cry with you. Although this forum family is scattered worldwide, you know that you have our love, support and prayers. Miracles come in all shapes and sizes. Prayers go out that the Divine fully, tenderly enfold you in the miracle that you most need at this time.

I pray that you will be able to find a way to put into words the awful news, since “sorrow shared is divided.” You have been tucked into the “kitchen table candle” which burns 24/7. May you be imbued with peace, tranquiliy and hope and may gentle healing tenderly enfold you.
Gentle hugs and whispered prayers

Yesterday is gone forever.Tomorrow may not come. Live Fully each moment today. Look for Good Things that Happen to you Every Day.

ORIGINAL: insideiamdying

ORIGINAL: buttington

Tarika, while I was lighting your candle in the 'All' group, this came into my mind, so I thought I would share it with you.

"Be realistic......plan for a miracle."
'Osho'

On the candle I wrote "be optimistic", but it should be "realistic"

Jude

OSHO is my favorite teacher... as the Bagwan Shree Rajneesh... He gave me my name... Prema Nishanto... Prema... means love... Nishanto... means coming out of darkness... He told me... that Love... would come out of my darkness... later... the name Tariki was added... Tariki... is the buddhist word meaning "other power" opposed to the buddhist word... jariki... self-power... So... There will be Love... coming out of darkness... as I rely on the other power... the unknown...

Your words made me cry.... and reminded me of the teaching in the Kabbalah... in the Book of Letters... That G-d... Counts the tears of women... Why... Because women are more sensitive... therefore they cry more... But G-d saves those tears... and in the end of days... will use those tears to bring healing to the world...... Thanks...

 
I will say prayers for your healing, and that God may give you rest from worry, calmness for you, strength to hear what the doctors say,  wisdom and compassion for the doctors to explain to you the course of treatment for healing, and that you will take his hand, trust him and know he is in control. Your Heavenly Father loves you very much, I ask all this in Jesus name, Amen
I found this song for you based on the name you were given, may you sing it all during the week:
 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HVNPZxPRmHc

The Gift of Austin
http://www.totsites.com/tot/babyaustinajr
WLAP, Austin's mommy
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I think I do have an idea . . .

You have... (and maybe you do)... have no idea the terror that fills my heart and mind...

Please know dear Tariki . . .
that you are most surely not alone.
You are embarking on perhaps the most important journey of your life
and it is essential for you to honour your feelings.
There is no good and no bad here . . .
even the fear can guide you into a place of love and healing.
Blessings of light and wisdom and courage dear Tariki . . .
I join the others and light a candle of hope for you,
and pray that this opportunity
opens up a new world of grace and healing . . .
holding you tenderly in my heart
with much love . . .
sparrow
 

everything counts... ♥

Cancer

It eats through your body and soul.
It does not matter who you are.
It takes you completely as a whole.
Leaving behind a scar.

It attacks in many different ways,
Slowly taking over your life.
Unbeknownst it takes over day by day.
Soon you start to feel the strife.

It is evil by its own name,
Attacking no matter what the age.
Child or adult we are all the same.
It sets everyone on a rage.

Sometimes it gives us signs,
Other times it is silent.
It has its own design,
Working in a manner so diligent.

Cancer is its name so clear,
This is a good name for this evil.
Just the mention of it brings fear.
Leaves everyone in an upheaval.

The doctors work so desperately,
Trying to save each and every life they see.
It can be a loss and life is crushed so deeply,
Other times it is a success and we all agree.

For those of us who have survived,
We hold on to the precious times,
And those who could not be revived,
Family and friends remember pastimes.

Research is needed to find a cure.
Give generously when you are asked to.
It may be you who will have to endure.
Then you will wish others care to give too.

Dare to Dream...

It sets everyone on a rage.

 
Dear Tariki,
Thank you for this very meaningful poem.
 
The rage is so important, because it affirms life and encourages the healing.
 
Wishing you hope and healing,
 
With Love, Jude

Love is the only way

Dear Tariki,
 
Poems sometimes can speak to us so much,your words fill me with sadness but also with hope for you.
 
I really hope your news will be good for you I do.
 
Take care,Sandraxx

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love~and be loved in return♥♥  


 

Hi Everyone...
 
Basically I was put on some of the newest cancer drugs available... and started a new round of Chemo... The drugs really kick my a**... the Chemo is old hack...
 
The only real benefit of Chemo... as far as I'm concerned... and its lame... is hair loss... I lose it... EVERYWHERE... So... I don't need to even shave my legs... and I love my wigs...
 
But... bottom line... He said if this does not work... seeing a new year... odds are... slim to none... I was really angry... and told the doctor... who is a friend... I would pi** on his grave in 30 years... He smiled and said... He would be honored...
 
So... thats it... guess... I proved them wrong once... why not twice...
 
Silly movie... Space Quest... The motto... Never Give Up... Never Surrender...
 
and as the Marines taught me... I will go down fighting...
 
Hugs to all...
 
Tariki...
 
 

Dare to Dream...