My dear friend Joya~ 
 
I have been away from the forum but glad you have called me to tell me what is happening lately. I value our friendship so deeply! I pray for you and your kids that things settle down and that they stay safe and healthy. I continue to lift your concerns in my hopes and prayers. I know things are hard on you, but you can ALWAYS turn to me to vent your feelings, sort things out and such. i find if I voice my trials and tribulations to someone who cares, they get easier to bear. Like the person who listens is helping me carry the burden. Dont forget to write to me when you can not sleep or are overwhelmed in general. Its truly helpful. I am also glad you walked. My therapist says walking outdoors is so important to feeling good. See if you can get a walk all by yourself once in awhile. I know that is difficult but it will rejuvinate your spirit and patience with the kids if you get a short break from them. At least it does for me!  
take care and keep in touch by email and phone since I dont visit the forum as much as I used to.(to all-I am overwhelmed at the forum often and sometimes stay away when I dont feel strong enough to read the threads here at light a candle). I should try the other forum sections I know. I will try to make time to do that soon.
 
Love to Joya and all my friends here,
Karen

integrity is shown when no one is looking

Dearest All thanks for you post. It has been so crazy around here the last 2 weeks. I have read your posts, just haven't had a chance to reply till now. Things have been staying right busy. We have a new addition to our farm. It is a dog and she came up last Thursday pregnant as can be. I think that someone threw her out. Between yesterday and today she has had a total of 18 puppies. 4 didn't make it.  We have let her say because we haven't the heart to put her back on the street. So betwwen working and keeping up with 18 animals and the kids as well , it has been a challenge.  I also am trying to get pack for vacation dn line up a sitter for all the animals next week. Not to mention that i am fighting bronchitis again along with my poison ivy. I have had 2 shots for the poison and hoping that I will get better soon.
 
Jude, thanks of thinking of me and posting and hoping that my days are more peacefull. I think that things have settled down more a bit thank goodness. The boy's cuts are healing. Richard will get his stitches out Wednesday and Kayden's are dissolvable and will stay in longer as his was deeper and he had inside and outside sutures. I have been keeping them clean and their meds kept on them and bandaging them back up. I think that I am getting so good at the cleaning and bandaging them up, that I can do it blind folded. Although I hope after this is over with that we don't ever have to go through this again.
 
Edda, thanks for your post as well. I do believe that you are right about kids healing faster then adults. The day after Richard had his sutures put in, he was ready to jump on the trampoline and go walking with us. I was like, " are you kidding me?" I told him that if his sutures came out then so many hours after the accident happens, you can't get them put back in. At least that is what the hospital said.
 
Sparrow, thanks for your post as well. Since the accidents, I do think that the days have been somewhat calmer if there is a thing as that. I am still very much on edge though as you might expect. The cuts like I said on both the boys are healing. It is just taking some time. I will be very happy when they are all healed as it worries me. I am trying to be kind to myself and get breaks, but ususally I don't get them as I haven't the heart to hear the crying. You know how kids are when they are sick or hurt , they want their mommy. the baby is 24/7 that was and has been since his accident. The way I see it though, is that he will only be little one time.
 
 
Sandra, thanks for your post as well. It does seem that when it rains, it pours. I am a good example of that. I like I said believe like you all said that kids heal quicker then us adults. Although, I sure wish that it would have been me that got the stitches instead of them. I also believe that kids are a blessing to this world and I am very thankful for all the kids that are in my life. Even the ones that aren't mine. As I usually have someone else's kids over to play with mine. Thanks for saying that I am a blessing, though I don't feel like it sometimes. I do think of you and your Louis often. even though I have not been able to post and light candles like I have wanted too, I just want you to know that you, your Louis, your James and his mommy have not been far from my mind. Thanks for being a great friend along with the others here on this forum. I don't know what I would not without you all.   
 
Diane, thanks for your love and post as well.  The kids are doing well with their stitches I think. I do have their suture sites bandaged up. I have to clean them first obviously then I out peroxide on it, the betadine and then Neosporin and then bangage it up. Thanks for the sock idea that worked great! I don't know why I didn't think of that. As far as the walking I think that we will just stick to the mile to mile and a half walk as I am doing good to get that in right now.Usually the kids start tiring out at a mile.  I was able to get in only 3 days of walking in last week as I work the weekends and it is defianately not possible then. I did get the kids schoolwork in every day and I also took the kids to the library and I also took them to a historic covered bridge to get them out of the house. It is so beautitiful there and has a picnic area and there is also a little trail to walk. So at least we did get out. I hope though that Iwill get in 5 days of walking this week. We will see. This week is going to be a busy one with trying to pack and all for vacation , get the schoolwork in and also I have some doc appointments for the kids. I might have to go as well depending on my poison ivy and bronchitis. I do believe like one of your students said that when you have kids around, you can NEVER be truly unhappy. That is so true. You are also right about there never being a dull moment at my house! I think that I am used to the chaos. I defianely have leaned lots through all this the last couple of weeks.
 
Lilwings, thanks for your loving words as well. Thanks for commenting on my strength. I do try hard to manage all the animals and the kids. Although I was not realizing that I would be helping raise 14 puppies and their mommy. I do hope all goes smoothly.  The kids seem to love all the animals and want to help me with them so now we are up to 18 dogs, 2 goats, 1 cat and 1 horse. My kids are wanting to keep all the puppies and you know that that is defianately now going to be possible. They are happy with helping me find good homes when they get old enough to wean. As far as wanting the baby to be seen last week, the doc did put him on antio-biotics and I really think that that has helped alot and the pain med let him rest some too as he was not getting any rest. The baby seems to act like he is not in as much pain now. So I am glad that I took him. Thanks for your candles, they mean so much to me.
 
 
Karen, thanks for your post as well. I did enjoy our chat on the phone the other day. I am sorry that it took us so long to finally get to talk. I do appreciate you listening to me and letting me vent. I hope that you know that I am here for you as well. As far as the walking by myself, that hardly ever happens as the kids always want to go with me and I have not the heart to tell them no. Take care and I hope that we can talk again soon.
 
Sorry this has been so long. I just wanted to reply to all of you all and let you know that I appreciate all your post, candles and thoughts and prayers. I will try to get on some more this week, as you know and I have already said, I have a alot to do this week to get ready for vacation next week. I would appreciate your prayers though as Kayden (the baby) has his Cystic Fibrosis test This Wednesday. We hope that the tests comes back negative. Thanks again for all your love and support. Love Always, Joya 
 
 
 

"LIFE IS NOT MEASURED IN THE BREATHS WE TAKE, IT IS MEASURED IN HOW MANY MOMENTS THAT TAKE OUR BREATH AWAY!"

Dear Joya,
Just reading about all you have to do makes me feel very tired!! 18 dogs..........................
 
Oh my goodness!
 
Have a good vacation.
 
Love,
Jude

Love is the only way

Dear Joya . . .
All I can say after reading all of this
is
Thank God you are going on a vacation!
Have a wonderful, and relaxing time.
I hope that it is truly going to be a vacation for you too.
Come back refreshed and renewed
with love . . .
sparrow

everything counts... ♥

Dear Joya,
 
I feel exhausted reading about all the things you are dealing with! As Sparrow says, good that you are going on vacation. I do hope you yourself will get some rest and relaxation!
 
Much love,
Edda

Peace and joy!

Jude, Lilsparrow, Edda,  thanks so much for your posts. I am sorry that it has taken so long to get back and post.  It has been so crazy since we got back last Sunday. There has so much going on and needed to be taken care of. As far as getting rest on vacation it was more of the kids vacation then ours. You know kids are they want to do this and that and go here and there but I can't complain, as it was some time away from home and the kids had a blast. My mother-in-law was nice enough to volunteer to pay for our hotel room all week. Her health is failing and she was not able to go out and see the grandkids and enjoy them on the beach, but I did get some pics of them for her. She just found out yesterday that she is going to have to have a knee replacement. I would appreciate all your prayers as she is 72 and was still working a full time job.  I so worried about all our while I was gone to the beach about all our animals though but thank goodness my friend took the puppies and mommy for the week and thenshe and her hubby came and ckecked on the other animals here on  the farm and my other neighbor and my dad also came by a couple nights to check on everything.
 
As far as my animals, we had 10 puppies survive. I was really upset the other didn't make it but I tried my hardest on all of them.  I have really gotten attached to the mama dog and all the puppies. I have had to help feed the puppies and doctor their navels up as they had gotten infected so, saying that it has been a challenge with the 10 puppies and the mama dog as you can tell that she had gotten down some from nursing all those puppies I have sort of had to help her keep her healthy.
 
As far as me and my family, I would still appeciate your prayers. It has now been 3 months since Kelsey left us and it is still very hard. I am also fighting some more health issues. One of my other angel baby's angelversary was June 29th so it has hit me pretty hard lately. I guess that it has been really good that I have been so busy. Thanks for all your love, concens, and for your candles. They mean so much to me. You have no idea. Love to you all and Please give me time to catch up on all the posts. Love Always, Joya

"LIFE IS NOT MEASURED IN THE BREATHS WE TAKE, IT IS MEASURED IN HOW MANY MOMENTS THAT TAKE OUR BREATH AWAY!"

Dear Joya,
Well, at least you had a change of scenery!! Like most moms I expect you got your pleasure from seeing the kids happy, but I'm sorry it wasn't more restful for you.
 
Do look after your own health......what would they all do without you?
 
Of course I will light a candle for your mom-in-law, that her knee replacement is successful and she return to good health.....also you.
 
with Love,
Jude

Love is the only way

Hello Joya good to see you back..
 
I know from when I was little 'Mother's' don't go
away with their children to have a 'holiday' as such.
Your post reminded me of this I guess as a Mother
your first port of call is to see your children having
fun.I am sure this alone brought you joy within.
 
I am sorry to here you have more health issues.I hope
they get sorted out very soon.
 
I will of course hold you all in my thoughts ,your candles
are glowing everyday dear Joya.
 
Sorry to nag you but do try to find time to talk to a
councillor as this will help you with your grief.
 
Take care Joya ,Sandra xx
 

 
 
 

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love~and be loved in return♥♥  


 

Dear Joya,
 
Thank you for telling us about your time away!
Coming back from vacation is always challenging since one has to catch up with everything. I am glad you have such helpful people around you!
 
I'll keep your mother-in-law, you and all your concerns  in my prayers!
 
Much love,
Edda

Peace and joy!

Dearest all my gratefulness family, these posts could not come at a better time. It has been a very hectic day at work and I have not felt good at all today. Not to mention we had company all day. Long, Long day...
 
Jude, The change of scenery at the beach did do me some good! I did very much get pleasure out of the kids playing. They were so sweet and I finally got my 3 year old used to the ocean so she was not scared.  My hubby got to go fishing with his brother so I did end up with the kids more as usual but I am so used to it. I was just worried about them being close to the water and me being by myself but we did good. The kids sure enjoyed the pool as well even the baby. His hand and Richard's knee do look better from the wounds they recieved and got stitches for. I did stay on the go though as the baby got into the refrigerator and would sit in there and I had to take the knobs off the stove and the oven as he leard the first day how to turn everything on. I had to "kid proof the room" but that was ok. We all did go fishing some and I was laughing as there was 3 men out there with us. (my hubby, my brother-in-law and my oldest step-son and guess who caught the first fish? ME!!! My kids were rubbing it in to the men bad!!! I did let my 5 year old take a pic with the fish even though it was small and let it look like he caught it. As far as you being sorry that I didn't any rest that is ok as I am so used to it and I would rather see the kids have fun. We also got to walk just about everday so that was good also. I am trying to look after myself, my hubby is wanting me to go back to one of my specialist as he is very worried about me. We will see. I know that my kids are depending on me.  Thanks for lighting a candle fo my mother-in-law, I have no idea when the knee repacement will take place as she was over today and told me that she has to do a MRI first and then they will go from there.
 
My dearest Sandra, thanks for saying that you had missed me. It is good to know that I was missed. I will say though that is is hard catching back up on everything and everyone but I am trying. Like I told Jude, the kids did make it bring me joy watching them play in the sand, play in the pool, feed the seagulls, etc.  As far as the health issues, it is not your fault. Thanks for all you loving words and candles, they all mean so much. I have not even had time to even think about a grief counsellor though as it has been so crazy around here and I have been in alot of pysical pain. Thanks for holding me close to your heart as this means so much. You and your Louis, your James and all the rest of my family here stay close to my heart.
 
Edda, You are so right about coming back to to alot of challenges. I thought that I was never going to get the clothes caught up and put away! Not to mention that I had all my puppies, the mommy dog and animals to look after. It was so overwhelming at first but I just did what I could do everyday. Thanks for keeping my mother and law and my concerns in your prayers. That means so very much.
 
Thanks again for all your love and candles, thoughts and prayers. I don't know what I would do without them. Love to you all, Joya
 

"LIFE IS NOT MEASURED IN THE BREATHS WE TAKE, IT IS MEASURED IN HOW MANY MOMENTS THAT TAKE OUR BREATH AWAY!"

I did stay on the go though as the baby got into the refrigerator and would sit in there and I had to take the knobs off the stove and the oven as he leard the first day how to turn everything on. I had to "kid proof the room" but that was ok

 
Joya, this reminds me of when my Grandson was first getting about and came to visit. I had to put sticky tape over all on/off buttons and over the Video slot on the video player, and elastic bands around drawer and door handles...and even put locks on some doors!
 
Jude

Love is the only way

Dear Joya . . .
We have all missed you,
and have been looking forward to hearing about your 'vacation'.
It sounds now, like you need a vacation!
I know that is how I used to feel
when I took vacations . . .
I will surely light a candle for your mother.
My own mother
had knee replacement surgery
some years back.
It was an ordeal,
but she has always been grateful that she had it done.
Thinking of you too,
and your health.
Please don't neglect yourself.
You are much needed,
so make that appointment!
 
Once again,
welcome back
with love . . .
sparrow

everything counts... ♥

Hi Joya!
 
Welcome Back!
 
Peace, Love and Joy,
Diane

Grateful to be here!
What a gift and connection builder!
Love and Gratitude,
Love who You Are

Hi Joya
I am so glad you are back.  When part of  the familyhood is missing its very felt by me.  So I am very glad you are back.  I have no idea how you can manage taking care of all the chidlren and the animals.  and hubby of course.  So much for one person. Sending love and light, lliwings

No need to spend endless hours, days, weeks searching for the rainbow.  Open your heart and your eyes to see and know you are the rainbow you seek.  Rejoyce in the beauty of the co-creation of you.

Dearest all, it feels so good to be back on here. This is the first time that I have actually gotten the time to be on here for more then 5 minutes. It has really been crazy and hectic around here. I think some of it was the kids are off of school for the summer and I am trying to still do schoolwork, then the 18 puppies and their mommy came. (which they have had a few health problems so I have felt like more of a vet and a mommy.) I have managed to keep 10 pups alive and I still have the mommy. They will  be 6 weeks Sunday so I am putting the word out in the paper and etc that the pups are ready. I will surely miss them though as I have put so much time, love and effort into the little ones. I have also gained another horse and are tending to her as she just got thrush. I was given her as my friend had no grass for her and also had her hands full with other horses. I think that it will do my other horse some good as she is getting older and would benefit from a friend. We still have the 2 goats. So.... as you can imagine it has been sort of crazy. I do hope that once the pups are gone to new loving homes and the kids are back in school that things will slow down some. My health is still not good. I do think that it has been a good thing for me to stay busy as my mind has no time to think and stay down.  I do need to find the time to get on this forum as I so realized how much I had missed every one of you. Please know that you all remain in my thoughts and prayers even though sometimes I can't get the time to get on here. Thanks for the contiuous love and support and the candles... it has meant so much to me. With love ALways, Joya

"LIFE IS NOT MEASURED IN THE BREATHS WE TAKE, IT IS MEASURED IN HOW MANY MOMENTS THAT TAKE OUR BREATH AWAY!"

Dear Joya,
 
I am so glad you had a chance to come back! I still get exhausted just reading everything you are doing, and your animal family keeps growing! Please, don't forget your health with all this activity!
 
I'll light a candle for you and keep you in my prayers!
 
Much love,
Edda

Peace and joy!

Edda, thanks for posting to me. It means so much! It does get exhausting sometimes dealing with all the animals when I have so much going on with the kids, but I think like I said that being and staying busy is good for me right now as it helps me not deal and think about the pain I feel. As far as my animals, I will be hopefully loosing my pups soon to good loving homes. It has been a long 6 weeks. I feel like they have been more kids then anything. My mom came a few weeks ago and she was sort of amazed how much I was having to deal with and take care of. She said that she had no idea that I was staying so busy. As far as myself and my health, I was hoping that my health would look up. We will see. I might have to endup going to the doc after all.  Thanks for all your love and concern. Love ALways, Joya 
 
 
P.S. I tried to post a pic of my pups but I guess I don't know how to or I am doing it the wrong way.
 

"LIFE IS NOT MEASURED IN THE BREATHS WE TAKE, IT IS MEASURED IN HOW MANY MOMENTS THAT TAKE OUR BREATH AWAY!"

Hi Joya!
 
Welcome Back!
Wow...just think how happy each family will be when they bring one of those puppies home with them. What a joy they are! I just saw my cousin who recieved one of my dogs, Princess's sweet puppies and she had the same temperment as her mom but all white and I often forget because both of my dogs have passed away for some time now. It always makes me smile when she reminds of that! Sweet little Tiffany is still doing well! Hope to catch up with you and hope you get that check up so you can figure out how to get well again!
 
Peace, Love and Joy,
Diane

Grateful to be here!
What a gift and connection builder!
Love and Gratitude,
Love who You Are

Dear Joya, WELCOME BACK!  It is good to see you post again.  After reading your two posts, all I can say is WWWWWWHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWW.  It sounds like it is time for Joya to take a good long Seriously, dear, you DO need to give yourself as much if not
more care than you give your children, the puppies and all the animals.  What happens if
you get sick.  Perhaps it would be good to schedule at least one hour of "Care for Joya" each day.  You can't keep running yourself into the ground.  Do take care of you.  I am sure the
older children can look after the younger ones for at least an hour each day to give you a
break.  Take good care of you so that you don't end up sick.  It really is not worth it.

Hugs and prayers,

Shalom(May you be at peace in Body, Mind,& Spirit.)
I'menuff

Welcome back Joya !!!
I second what Betty said.  all of it.  whewwwwwwwwwww  it is totally inconceivable what you do !!!  Super woman.  Sometimes when we can delegate responsabilities and  chores to the older ones, it teaches them invaluable life skills.  Teaching them responsability and how to care for others.  Skills they will have for a lifetime.   Maybe you already do that.  But Joya, if not, then doing so can give you some rest you need while helping the older ones to learn some important life skills.
 
I used to think I could defy what was reasonable for a human body.  But I learned the hard way that I could not.  I never recovered physically.  I was like superwoman taking care of the people I help.  After 5 years of doing that I found out that people were right.  Doing it that way was going to harm me if I continued.  And it did.  Maybe you will be okay with it. But I just wanted to share my experience.  I am sending lots and lots of love to you Joya.,   love liliwings

No need to spend endless hours, days, weeks searching for the rainbow.  Open your heart and your eyes to see and know you are the rainbow you seek.  Rejoyce in the beauty of the co-creation of you.

How good to see you back
dear Joya . . .
I can see that your life has been a whirlwind
(as usual )
but I pray
that you remember
to take care of yourself.
'Me' time will nourish you
so that you can better nourish others
with love . . .
sparrow

everything counts... ♥

Dearest Joya,
Do please listen to all the advice so lovingly given here! YOU are the most important person (which ever way you look at it) in your houshold, so it is important that you look after yourself.
When I was young I too thought I could defy the laws of nature, but nature knows best and will soon give you a kick if you don't behave!
The others are right...older children enjoy a bit of responsibility, and it does teach them life skills.
 
So go and get that doctor's check-up to put your mind at rest, and......slow down!
 
with Love,
Jude

Love is the only way

if anyone has missed the topic i started about Joya being extremely ill, please see it here:
 
 
^click on the little dash as it would not allow me to enter text for some reason
 
May God Speed Joya to a full and complete recovery.
 
karen

integrity is shown when no one is looking

Dearest All, I would appreciate your thoughts and prayers the next few days as this is going to be a very heard weekend for us. As you all know, in April I lost Kelsey to a miscarriage. This coming Monday, the 9th of November was suppose to be Kelsey's due date. We know that Kelsey would have already probably would have been in our loving arms right now as all my babies came early. We are having such a hard time accepting that Kelsey was not meant to be here with us on earth. My kids are really taking this hard too so any prayers would be appreciated. I never thought that this would be so hard....  It is so very hard to accept that we will NEVER get to hold Kelsey on this earth... The hurt and the pain NEVER goes away... On Monday, we will be realeasing balloons in Kelsey's honor. I have decided to let the kids write their own message to Kelsey on them. I am hoping that this will help ease some of the pain we feel. We can NEVER bring Kelsey back, but knowing that Kelsey is looking down on us and that my other angel babies are too helps... Thanks for reading this. I am so hurt tonight. There are not enough words to describe the way I feel I hurt tonight. I am very thankful for my other living kids please don't get me wrong. I guess maybe that is why I miss Kelsey more as I know so much more of what I am missing out on with Kelsey. Thanks for reading this... Love  to all!

"LIFE IS NOT MEASURED IN THE BREATHS WE TAKE, IT IS MEASURED IN HOW MANY MOMENTS THAT TAKE OUR BREATH AWAY!"

Dearest Joya,
 
My heart goes out to you and your family as this difficult date comes around. I think releasing the balloons with their personal messages will be helpful to your children. You miss having Kelsey in your midst terribly. I think Kelsey is close to you and looking after you.
 
I will light a candle for you!
 
Wishing you comfort and peace,
 
Much love and warm hugs,
Edda

Peace and joy!

Dearest Joya,
 
My thoughts are with you right now seeing and feeling how your heart is broken open once again.Somethings are hard to accept and the loss of a dear wanted child is one of them.
 
Your little Kelsey lives on Joya inside of you and I am sure she will help carry you through the next few days.
 
My thoughts are with you and your family at this difficult time.
 
Take good care Joya and I too think it's a lovely idea to float balloons up to Kelsey ...
 

 
 
Little Snowdrop

The world may never notice
If a Snowdrop doesn't bloom,
Or even pause to wonder
If the petals fall too soon.
But every life that ever forms,
Or ever comes to be,
Touches the world in some small way
For all eternity.
The little one we long for
Was swiftly here and gone.
But the love that was then planted
Is a light that still shines on.
And though our arms are empty,
Our hearts know what to do.
Every beating of our hearts
Says of our love for you.
~ Author Unknown
~   ~ ~ 

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love~and be loved in return♥♥  


 

mamaluvskids


Dearest All, I would appreciate your thoughts and prayers the next few days as this is going to be a very heard weekend for us. As you all know, in April I lost Kelsey to a miscarriage. This coming Monday, the 9th of November was suppose to be Kelsey's due date. We know that Kelsey would have already probably would have been in our loving arms right now as all my babies came early. We are having such a hard time accepting that Kelsey was not meant to be here with us on earth. My kids are really taking this hard too so any prayers would be appreciated. I never thought that this would be so hard....  It is so very hard to accept that we will NEVER get to hold Kelsey on this earth... The hurt and the pain NEVER goes away... On Monday, we will be realeasing balloons in Kelsey's honor. I have decided to let the kids write their own message to Kelsey on them. I am hoping that this will help ease some of the pain we feel. We can NEVER bring Kelsey back, but knowing that Kelsey is looking down on us and that my other angel babies are too helps... Thanks for reading this. I am so hurt tonight. There are not enough words to describe the way I feel I hurt tonight. I am very thankful for my other living kids please don't get me wrong. I guess maybe that is why I miss Kelsey more as I know so much more of what I am missing out on with Kelsey. Thanks for reading this... Love  to all!

Dear Joya: I wanted to let you know I won't quit praying. My heart and prayers go out to you and your family.
 
(HUG)

Praying for friends~
Missing a lost friend~
Kelly C

Dearest Joya,
thinking of you at this difficult time, and with you all in spirit as you release the balloons.
 
thank you Sandra for the heart-felt poem.
 
with Love,
Jude

Love is the only way

Dear, dear Joya . . .
I pray that your pain be eased
as your balloons fly towards heaven.
Little Kelsey is surely loved
and will always be remembered,
even as God remembers the snowdrop
that never came to bloom . . .
with much love . . .
sparrow

everything counts... ♥

Thinking of you all today dear Joya...
 

                                         ♥

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love~and be loved in return♥♥  


 

Dearest Sandra, Edda, Kelly C, Jude, and LilSparrow, thanks for the continuing support at this hard time in our lives. We really appreciate the love and support and the candles. This weekend has been so hard. Yesterday was the hardest obvioulsy. The kids did write on the balloons to Kelsey and we hope that Kelssy has seen them by now. Kelsey along with our 2 other angel babies will always be love and forever in our hearts. Please just continue to pray for us (especially me as I am having a problem with my anger and depression etc. ) I am so angry right now and I know that this is not right.  Thanks again for reading this and all your posts to me. You all here are such very special people. I don't know what I would do without my gratefulness family. Sending my love to each and every one of you.

"LIFE IS NOT MEASURED IN THE BREATHS WE TAKE, IT IS MEASURED IN HOW MANY MOMENTS THAT TAKE OUR BREATH AWAY!"

Dear Joya,

I´ve been thinking of and praying for you during the past days. The ritual with the balloons must have been really special; you can trust that so much love reached Kelsey! Please, dear Joya, don´t be angry at yourself for feeling angry! It is the most natural thing in the world. No feeling of ours should be suppressed. There´s a need behind every feeling, so we do well to look at it and see how we can meet it. Having worked through it, we can then let go of it, when the time is right...

Do take care and be as gentle with yourself as possible!

Love and Blessings,
Juliana

"Speak Peace in a World of Conflict" (M.B.Rosenberg)

Dear Joya,
I agree with everything Juliana has said. One day at a time.....
 
with Love,
Jude

Love is the only way

Joya, prayers of comfort and strength for you and your loved ones.
Amen
Glenys x