Freddy
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PESSO therapy
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4/28/2009 5:58 AM
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Dear, I have already been writing at other places of this website. Maybe this is not the place to post a message on this new subject, but I try it. As I put before I am going through a lot of pain, because of emotional blocks in my body since 1996. I have been reading a very special book by R.A. Masters, called 'Meeting the dragon' which is free downloadable here: http://www.robertmasters.com/Writing_Section/books.htm#MTD about going into the pain in order to stop sufffering... What can I say? It is certainly a very special, practical, profound, wise, poetic, and simple (?) book as one of the reviewers in the foreword says. Masters is surely also a poet: '... metaphor is to feeling, intuition what symbol is to thinking...'. I admit however I had to look up certain words in my dictionary, because my English vocabulary is not that big. It reads like what I would call a phenomenology of pain or of the pain body. In fact, as always, it is all about acceptance and awareness. Elisabeth of the Trinity said: 'L' acceptation (surrender, letting go) ç'est tout!'. How strangely it may sound, the book reminded me also of the desert fathers with their self investigation. Anselm Grün, the famous Benedictine monk (I have a girl friend working in a religious bookstore and she says every 2 weeks there is a book out of this Grün, ...what the hell is this???) adviced me some time ago the same thing, namely to go into the pain and listen to the message behind it.This is something which is crucial in good therapies of different kinds and of spiritual practices. On Saturday I went for a dinner with an old friend (former Carmilite monk who left monastic life years ago) and although he has certainly good and right things to say (f.e. about the power games of ego's, the jealousy and so forth within the communities...), he is also overly critical about the church. And since I am sort of a sponge that absorbs things too much that are being said, the day after I lost myself... So, yesterday Sunday I went through a hell! Restlessness, extreme pains, not being able to stay with it, escaping into reading stuff, anger, fury even, rebellion, loneliness (the sreaming child in me), isolation and extreme resistance (inner saboteur) to get out of this isolation (f.e. through walking)... Then in the evening G. picked me up to go to the evening service in the magnificent church of the Benedictine monks near Bruges and all these words, words, words (okay psalms but even then...) made me still more rebellious against everything going on. Afterwards I had a talk with L. (who leads the Laura community of Poimen, initiated by father Benoît Standaert) and it came still clearer to me how I tend to pass over, to skipp (?) certain unresolved issues. I am in such a rush to get to this 'object free meditation' or contemplation and more depth in my prayer life that I don't get anywhere! I am practicing yoga since recently, but morer and more I feel I am so stuck that the way out on myself is not possible wonder? L. (who was raped at 21 years old and then lived for years in a monastery) had been helped a lot by Pesso therapy. I think, from what I read, it is a good therapy (psychologically, bodily, emotionally). Is there anyone there who went through this before? Greetings,Fred PS A good article on 'spiritual bypassing', which I have done for years is: http://www.johnwelwood.com/articles/Embodying.pdf
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