Hello Good Morning,
 
Little James slept all night last night,I called this morning at 7.00am and he
was still fast asleep.He normally gets up from 5am onwards due to his medication,
but he was worn out bless him.
 
The lovely thing was he is having a new kitten (Iam too) and they arrived
last night when he was sleeping.So this morning after I called he woke up and
his Mummy took him downstairs to see the kittens(plus me as I was on the other
end of the phone).I could hear him say'Oh Mummy thank you' I shed a tear
thinking just how adorable and precious he really is.
 
Thank you for keeping the candles and prayers flowing thank you..
 
 

Sandra, you are such an inspiration. This is such a huge and wonderful insight that all of us can be reminded of.

 
Dear Jude ,
 
Thank you for your kind words but I don't really feel I am an inspiration .
I have beaten myself up may times Jude and hurt many people by doing this.
But for me now I am at peace with my grief,however I know too well it could and will
come back to the surface again.What I will try so hard to hold onto is the fact light
will again come as it has before.I know grief never dies but in time for me it became
precious in the way my beauitful memories of my little Louis took over the sad and
awful memories on his loss on earth. 
  
  
  
Dearest Joya ,
 
Your grief is so raw right now ,so let other's comfort you and walk with you,this helps it really does .
I am not worthy of your praise or indeed anyone else's as I have hurt many people through my own personal 
battle with grief,but in time all I can do is hope that other's will forgive me and for me to try to forgive myself and move forward in the hope I can be a better person....   
   
 
WE would NEVER change the fact that we were our angel babies mother. I will forever be grateful for the opportunity to be my angel babies mothers. Even though I don't understand why they had to leave me so soon. The fact is that God chose me for some reason to be each of my angel babies mothers and that is something to be proud of.
 
Joya you words bring's music to my ears how beautiful and powerful your statement is.
It is hard Joya and why is a question we all ask, but in time we do find out why and in  ways we grow when we do.
 
 
 
 
You help other's Joya in many ways never forget this not ever.
 
Love to all,Sandraxxxx
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love~and be loved in return♥♥  


 

Dear Sandra . . .
It is so good to hear that little James is home,
feeling better,
and enjoying his new pussy cat.
What Jude has said is true . . .
whether you accept this or not
you are an inspiration . . .

What I will try so hard to hold onto is the fact light will again come as it has before.

Yes it will Sandra,
as it does for all of us
if we just embrace it
with much love for you . . .
sparrow

everything counts... ♥

Hello Everyone,
 
Little James was taken back into hospital today,
he has diabetes insipidus and the doctors are
concerned as he is passing far too much water .
He is still smiling throught it all,what a little hero he is.
 
Can you hold my little Nephew and his Mummy in your prayers & 
thought's once again please..
 
 thank you..
 
Sandraxx

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love~and be loved in return♥♥  


 

Dear Sandra,
I'm so sorry to hear this.
 
I will certainly light a candle now for James and his mummy.
 
with Love,
Jude

Love is the only way

oh Sandra sweetie, I just saw this. I will light a candle for your wonderful nephew James.  I am glad he is doing better. and that he has a new kitty cat.  Of course i am sad to hear about anyone going through chemo.  How brave he must be.  I am sure he is a beautiful boy.  and very loved.  Sending lots of love, liliwings

No need to spend endless hours, days, weeks searching for the rainbow.  Open your heart and your eyes to see and know you are the rainbow you seek.  Rejoyce in the beauty of the co-creation of you.

Dear Sandra,
 
I, too, just saw your post! I am sorry that little James had to return to the hospitlal I will light a candle for him and his mummy.
 
Much love,
Edda

Peace and joy!

Thank you everyone for all of your prayers and best wishes,they
helped so much and they helped me too.
 
I am delighted to tell you James is now home with his Mummy.
The doctor's have changed some of his tablets but they have
said if he gets any more headaches,fits or fainting spells to come back in.
So once again my sister is a bit fragile but she is remarkable in so many
ways.
 
I went to see him today with the children I care for and he was his
usual happy self.His poor little arms are covered in bruises and he
said' the doctor was very nice but he hurt me Aunty Sandra,but
he did not mean to'.
 
James gives us all strength he really does...
 
I wish with all of my heart I could swap places with James because
no child should have to suffer not at all
 
All I can do is be there for my sister and pray that somehow James
will be free one day from this illness.
 
Thank you again love a very grateful Auntyxxxxxx

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love~and be loved in return♥♥  


 

Dear Sandra,
 
Thank you for the update. I am glad that little James is back home. He is a brave little boy!
 
I'll keep him and his mummy in my prayers,
 
Much love,
Edda

Peace and joy!

Sandra sweetheart
I am glad James is home now.  Oh it made my eyes leak to read what he said.  I wish he did not have to suffer.  But i bet his heart is glowing bright with love and light.  I pray that your wonderful sweet nephew James will someday soon live free of illness.  love, liliwings

No need to spend endless hours, days, weeks searching for the rainbow.  Open your heart and your eyes to see and know you are the rainbow you seek.  Rejoyce in the beauty of the co-creation of you.

mamaluvskids


My dear sandra, before coming to check your post to see how your nephew James was doing, I had already lit a candle for him and his mommy plus one for you and your Louis. Sandra, you have and are such an inspiration to so many people.  As I read your post and Xanadues, my eyes filled up with tears. I hope to one day have the same faith that ya'll have. You both have helped so many people in so many ways. I know that if you and I could change things that we would bring our babies back but what you said was so true, WE would NEVER change the fact that we were our angel babies mother. I will forever be grateful for the opportunity to be my angel babies mothers. Even though I don't understand why they had to leave me so soon. The fact is that God chose me for some reason to be each of my angel babies mothers and that is something to be proud of. Thanks again for your loving posts. You, your nephew and his mom will be in my thoughts. Love Always, Joya

Dear Mamaluvskids:  Joya, the one whose name brings a Smile  ☻
 
Please look and listen to this   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8TipLsmZgjI
 
I will continue to Pray that your faith strenghthens,  hold on my dear to the Glorious Promise He gives us,  keep reaching out and speaking/writing your feelings, continue to search your Bible or www.BibleGateway.com  for reassurance, talk with your church family for encouragement and Guidance- I listen to Moody Radio as often as possible to clear away doubt like the windshield wiper of a car clears the windshield.  And Yes my Dear, I have screamed and questioned, and went to counseling, and doctors and on and on and went back to WHY WHY WHY?? now I ask What am I to learn from this??
THink of the Most Beautiful Glorious Reunion you will have, close your eyes and envision above the clouds, above the stars-  stretch higher, and then Glimmering light and then Your Heavenly bodyform will be guided by your own Angel Babies and they will know you in a heartbeat and all shall be answered for you ♥♥♥♥
 
AS always,   WLAPTAG

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Blessings to little James! What a great little boy.
 
Love, Jude

Love is the only way

I am so sorry dear Sandra,
to hear that little James had to be taken back to the hospital,
but am relieved that he is now receiving treatment
and has been able to return home.
I am especially gladdened to hear
that you can take the children you care for
to visit him,
as I am sure this is good for his spirits.
I continue to keep a candle lit for James and for his mother,
who is so fragile at this time.
What a brave little boy, dear Sandra . . .
may his condition be stabilized
with love . . .
sparrow

everything counts... ♥

Dearest Sandra, I am just now getting on to check the post and to check on you and your nephew and his mommy. My weekends usually stay busy as I work and have company every Sunday. As I was reading your post, I was glad to hear that James got to come home and then he got a new kitten. Then I was saddened to hear that he had to go back to the hospital. I know that it has got to be hard on James, you and his mom. To see a child suffer is one of the hardest thing in the world I am sure. James has been through so very much in his small life time bless his heart. He is a true fighter.  I am glad to hear that he is back home again and hope that he will be able to stay at home. As far as the kitten I am sure that that makes his days better. They say kids having pets does alot for them. I know that my kids sure do enjoy our pets. Big and small. My only hope is that James will stay strong. I will light more candles for him, his mommy and of course you and your Louis.
 
Sandra, another thing I want to say to you is that you say you have hurt so many people through your own grief, Sandra, you have done so much for so many. No one is perfect and we all see things so differently sometimes. All we can do is try to help each other while we are grieving ourselves. I feel sometimes that there is no way I can help anyone else with their grief or problems or be a inspiration to someone else when I can't get through my own grief and problems, but the fact is that all I can do is to try to do the best I can to be there for my friends and others. Helping myself and taking each and every day one day at a time is all I can do and right now I am having a hard time doing that. Please know that sometimes we can't see the good in ourselves but always remember others can see things we can't. With love ALways Sandra, Joya
 
Xanadue, you too are such a inspiration. Thanks for your post to me as it meant so much. I too pray that one day I will have my faith strengthened. I also can't wait to be re-united with my angel babies. How I so miss them! I have envisoned this many times but I have to admit that I do wonder if this will ever happen. I guess as humans we want it all and we want what we want when we want it. That is definately not how life works. I believe the good Lord gives you what he only wants you to have. In saying this, it definately doesn't mean that I agree with it or it makes it easier to accept that my babies have left me so soon. Thanks again for your love and inspiration as you and the rest of the people on this forum have really helped me in so many ways. With love ALways, Joya 

"LIFE IS NOT MEASURED IN THE BREATHS WE TAKE, IT IS MEASURED IN HOW MANY MOMENTS THAT TAKE OUR BREATH AWAY!"

Thank you for your loving prayers and caring hearts...
 
Sadly James has had a massive seizure ,it happened
during the night when his Mummy was asleep.
She woke to find his little body jumping  so violently next to her.
Once again my poor beauiful nephew is suffering.
 
I have only just been told as Yvonne bless her did not
want to upset me during the night.
 
Can I please please ask you to pray so hard for James.
 
Dear Jesus can you not give me Jame's pain.
My own child died before pain took over him,
I am begging you lord to put my needs first.
You as a caring person will know I have had my life,
but James is just starting his little life.
Lord please please hear my prayer  .
Sandra
 
 

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love~and be loved in return♥♥  


 

Dear Sandra . . .
Prayers go out for little James
that his pain be stopped
and his body be made well . . .
and that the doctors can bring these problems under control.
What a hard, hard battle for such a little boy.
I hold him and his mother so close
with love . . .
sparrow

everything counts... ♥

Sandra, dear, I am so sorry Little James is struggling so hard.  Know that he and you and his family are being held in prayer.  May the Shepherd hold him close in his healing love,grant wisdom and gentleness to those who care for him, and sustain you and your family on this journey.

Joya, even though you now feel you can be of no help to others, sometimes just reading that another who is also grieving keeps taking one step at a time and then another and then another, helps another grieving individual to keep going.  May the sunshine soon follow the storms.

Hugs and prayers to all those walking with pain, suffering and grief today.

Shalom(May you be at peace in Body, Mind,& Spirit.)
I'menuff

Dear Sandra,
Little James and his mummy and aunty are all in my prayers. I pray that his condition will be stabalized, bless him
 
Blessings and Healing to all of you,
With Love,
Jude

Love is the only way

Sandra, my heart goes out to you, James and his mommy. Please know that you all  are in my thoughts. Thanks for keeping us up-dated. Please know that we are hoping that James will stay stablized. Love to you and James and his mommy. I have already lit more candles. Love ALways, Joya

"LIFE IS NOT MEASURED IN THE BREATHS WE TAKE, IT IS MEASURED IN HOW MANY MOMENTS THAT TAKE OUR BREATH AWAY!"

Thank you Ladies and Gents for all your prayers and candles.
They help us all as you know....
James will be in hospital for a while  but through it all he still has
 the biggest smile for everyone.When he came out of his seizure
he was full of life thank God.
 
He has had bloods taken,mri and so many other things done to him.
 
The doctors love him they gave him his little animal gown to take home
 he is so proud of it.It would break your heart to see him so grateful ...
only because he does not know how serious his illness can be
nore should he ever know. I pray so hard for a miracle each and everyday
for little James..
 
Thank you again ,love Sandraxxxx
 
Thank you Jesus once again
 
 

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love~and be loved in return♥♥  


 

Oh Bless him, bless him!

Love is the only way