This process that started on June 12 is going to go into a new phase today.
 
Last week I had another biopsy (# 3) in the right breast, something "fishy" was visible on the magnetic resonance imaging. I am already certain I have two different cancer types, one in each breast. How are they going to treat that?
 
I am hoping I do not have any metastases, my morale is hung on that. I hope they would have called me and treated me more agressively if that was the case.
 
Lots of people are praying for me already but if you can think of me today, I need it. Please light a candle in the All group. As soon as I return from the appointment, I will post the results here as an answer to this message.
 
Here is a picture of my engagement ring
 
and the flowers my fiancé gave me yesterday to cheer me up

Dearest Line,
 
I have already lit a candle for you and will be thinking of you.
 
What a fabulous ring! and red roses too...so romantic.
 
Sending Love and positive thoughts,
Jude

Love is the only way

Dearest Line,
I am going to light a candle for you and pray for you.
Don't give up your hope!You are strong and you can get the battle!
Hang on you brave Green_Woman!!!
 

Buba,Goran's mom

Dear Line . . .
I will keep you close
as you await news,
and pray for the very best.
Did you know that you have a candle group?
It is http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/candles.cfm?l=eng&gi=line
I cannot seem to write text instead of the whole link,
but the name of the group is "Line".
I am so very happy
that you have such a caring person close by
to support and nurture you
through this difficult and terrifying time
with love . . .
sparrow

everything counts... ♥

Dear Line: I lit a prayer candle and attached some hugs to it. I'm praying for you and won't quit.
 
(I wasn't sure if the hugs below would fit on the candle) 
 
(hug) (hug) (hug) (hug) (hug) (hug) (hug) (hug)
 

Dear Line,
 
I just lilt a candle in your own candle group for which Sparrow posted a link! It has been going for some time!
 
You are surrounded by love, here and at home! Let it carry you through this difficult time!
 
Much love and warm hugs,
Edda

Peace and joy!

Dear Line,
 
Many prayers and healing blessings have been said daily for you.
 
I am not a docotr but I hope because they have not called you into hospital straight away this is a good sign.
 
 
Your ring is beautiful as are the flowers .I feel the love you both have for each other and the prayers will
indeed carry you through these very difficult times.
 
Healing thoughts dear Line,Sandra
 

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love~and be loved in return♥♥  


 

dear line,
 
i am new to this forum filled with love.   i will light a candle for you, and i will pray for you in my smoky mountain valley waterfall visualization.
 
i am hoping that your news is the best possible.   if it is more difficult, i, also, am praying that the diagnosis is complete and accurate.  knowledge is power.  if they know exactly what and where the cancer is, the better they will be able to treat it.
 
my father, who died 22 years ago, once told me that we were not meant to go through this life alone.   though there is fear and uncertainty, the only thing you have to do is get through this moment, this day.    and you never have to do it alone.   i pray that you and your fiance will have strength, but i, also, pray that those who love you in your family and community, and those of us who love you in this sanctuary space will also have strength to share with you.  what a wonderful promise in the ring and in the roses.  it is that kind of connection that will carry you through this time.
 
it is natural to want to know the outcome, but we never really can.   we often think we can, but we cannot.  all we can ever do in any situation in life is take the next right step and allow others near to support us.
 
i will pray that you will feel the warmth and healing of love surrounding you and your fiancee, like a protective shield.    and the rest, all the uncertainty and unknown, try to put into the hands of a power greater than yourself, whatever may be your beliefs. 
 
love will carry you through this unknown path.   light is always right there with you.
 
i will be looking for your next posting.  
 
love,
butterfly spirit

hi Line.  i am praying for you and am going to light a candle.  its such a hard time for you waiting to hear stuff about your illness.  please try to be really gentle wit you.  i pray that god that you will give you his love and wrap you up in a big God typr 'Hug.'take things one at a time whict i know is so hard at times.  but rest assureed you are4 being held up by God an His love, and our loved and prayers are there for you.

Dear Line,
 
Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers
 
With Love,
Jude

Love is the only way

1. One good news : object No. 3 est benign
2. The nature of the "intruders" is such that drugs like tamoxiphene will be used ti treat me, it increases my chances of remission.
3. Scintigraphy has detected an anomaly on the right side of my head, they don't know what it is but it is not worrisome (quoting my doctor verbatim). It must be my "language centre" LOL (I'm a translator; en français, la bosse des langues)... =)
4. Another good news: no metastases were detected in the lungs or bones, where they usually start.
5. To increase certainty there are none elsewhere, another echography, of the internal organs, will be performed (my MD said it would be surprising they find anything).
6. Since I already had cancer on the right side, it is most likely the whole breast will be removed this time to minimize the risk of relapse. What is left to decide is if there will be an implant or not (I not terribly interested in that since it interferes with future breast exams, etc.). Number 7 below will  have a lot of weight in the decision.
7. I am going to meet a radiologist Monday or Tuesday, to see if there is a possibility of using curietherapy on the right side (radiotherapy where the isotopes are inserted inside the body with needles and kept there for 5 days). It is impossible to use regular radiotherapy on me on the right side since I had some in the past. What the radiologist concludes and what the "tumor committee" decides will determine what kind of surgery I will get. On the left side, it will probably be conventional radiotherapy (with a machine sending rays).
8. I will also have to meet the plastic surgeon (all the people who treat me are women). The plastic surgeon is the one who will "finish the job". So there are at least 2 or 3 other doctor appointments or exams in the very short term (within a week).
9. As far as the left side is concerned, it is obvious part of the breast will have to go. But I would end up with a very asymetrical silhouette, really out of balance. The committee (of which the plastic surgeon and the radiologist are members) will have to discuss all that, take my opinion into account, and see what is the best solution as far as survival is concerned, etc. Maybe it will be decided it is best to remove both breasts.
10. It is clear we are going towards a surgery much more invasive than the one I had in 2000 but maybe radiotherapy will not be as tough (I had to travel 100 miles back and forth for 27 days to go to Sherbrooke as the waiting list was too long in Montreal). Nothing is decided yet as far as the chemo is concerned (it depends in part on the kind of surgery I will have received).
11. One can expect I will undergo surgery within a month and will be off work for a week because of the scope of the surgery.

Dear Line . . .
Your news is confusing
to one who does not understand much of the medical solutions offered,
but it seems cautiously optimistic.
For that I am grateful.
You are very brave and strong.
I am keeping you especially in my prayers
as you face the doctors and surgeons
in the coming weeks
with much love . . .
sparrow

everything counts... ♥

Dear Line,
 
Thank you for sharing with us the "plan" for the steps leading to definitive therapy. From what you write  your doctors are very thorough!
I hope you can, together with them, come to the best treatment plan for you!
 
I keep you in my prayers and a candle lit,
 
Much love and warm hugs,
Edda

Peace and joy!

Dear Line,
 
I join Sparrow and Edda in keeping you in my prayers, with hopes for optimism.
 
Blessings and Love,
Jude

Love is the only way

Well, as far as I can tell, there are no metastases, which was my biggest fear.

But being told my case is very complicated and that it  is almost certain my right breast has to go is not funny at all, even if I understand why. I have discussed this with my spouse, he knows I will be in pain, that I have a difficult mourning to do and that my physical aspect will change a lot, I might get shy, etc.

I also found out that some of the Avon products I have been using for years (and other ones too) contain cancer-inducing agents. I threw out that ones that contain these agents. And I recommend women read the two articles below.

Other products also on the market should be a cause for concern.

http://jco.ascopubs.org.../content/full/27/26/e103

http://www.huffingtonpo...ncer-insti_b_263156.html (this one deals specifically with Avon, who is active in Canada, the US and many other countries http://www.avoncompany.com/world/).

Read the labels! There are other products available that do not contain these ingredients.

I am grateful I can share this info with other women.

Hi Line.  you have so muych going on right now medically.  i am going to lightr a candle and pray for you that the treatment they do give you will give the minor of sideeffects and provide healing.  and im feeling releived for you that there are no mesastetes. 
 
i am praying for you and holding you close to my heart.
 
love from eleanor

Dear Line,
 
Thank you for the info pages. I have passed them on to women I know.
 
With Love,
Jude

Love is the only way

Dear Line,
 
I am happpy to hear that there are no metastases!
 
Thank you for the information about possible cancer-causing ingredients in cosmetics.
 
The prospect of losing one breast certainly would affect your body image, but from what you have told us about your spouse, it is you, the woman, he loves! I hope and trust that you both can work your way through this likely loss. 
 
With prayers and much love,
Edda

Peace and joy!

Line, prayers of healing, strength and love to you. Your engagement ring is fab!
Namaste
Glenys x

Dear Line . . .
Prayers continue for you
with love . . .
sparrow

everything counts... ♥