Marie M.
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Joined: 3/11/2007
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Today I am grateful for keeping busy outdoors again, the sun beating down, the clouds and the heaven above, the birds flying past me from the woods behind and the wind in my hair. My inspiration God and my son. After losing my son, I lost my identity, I lost my world. I believe I am finding myself in a way that is different and at times it strange too. God, prayer and keeping busy all the time have been my strength, it is the way I chose to proceed on this journey forever changed with a part of me missing. I appreciate many more things that I used to take for granted, one of those things is nature, perhaps feeling closer to God and my son this way. I do not know, but it is good. I had someone recently, who I have known for three years and knows my situation and loss, ask me "Are you on something from the doctor?" I replied no, "I do not drink or take any medication, only 2 small pots of coffee a day and a pack of cigarettes". She replied "Oh I know of someone else that has had lost someone and she was a little different. She wonders why or how I stay busy. I should have went on and told her of how I pray dilligently daily to God and the Blessed Virgin Mary for healing and to return to functioning as I have, but instead I prayed for this person who could never understand a loss of a child, she has three. I am grateful for life, my life, my children, family, friends, and for eveyone I have to come to know here. You are in my prayers. God Bless Marie
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