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RE: In a Bad Way~A Really Bad Way - 12/14/2007 11:38:06 PM

HurtN4CertN

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NO No Sharon, It wasn't anything you said at all. I WAS feeling like killing myself, then I prayed and talked to my counselor and realized how ending my life would no do anything but prevent God from doing His work. Rationally I know that suicide is a permanent soulition to a temporary problem and there is no guarentee that we will end up with our deseased loved ones if our life ends at our own hand. Its just so easy to feel so overwhelmed and feel that there is no other way out. Please do not feel like should not have posted. I value your feeling and appreciate everything you said. I am still in that dark deep hole of despair, but I have to give myself permission to have some kind of hope and trust in God or a power greater than myself.

God Bless,

DonnaMarie

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RE: In a Bad Way~A Really Bad Way - 12/15/2007 6:39:47 AM

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Dear Barbara T,
Thank you so much for this little insight into your life. It was most appreciated.

Dear Donna Marie,
I'm please you sound as if you've turned a corner. Do keep faith.

Much Love, Jude

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RE: In a Bad Way~A Really Bad Way - 12/21/2007 3:55:12 PM

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Ironically, I came here from another link on an entirely different board to respond to something else, when I saw this topic heading. The irony is, I've spent all day trying to copy pictures and video as a gift to my mother, of my sister, who committed suicide last year. The amount of grief we carry since losing her is often paralyzing. That in itself, however, when you are suffering, is clearly not enough to stop someone. When you are in that much pain, psychological or physical, I know it's hard to think of those left behind, but I often wonder about all the 'what if's. Since none of us can say with certainity what the after life holds, what if, when we don't complete whatever we were supposed to learn and accomplish in this life, we have to come back in another, until we learn the lessons at hand? My daily prayer is usually just to help me understand the lessons life is bringing to me. I don't want to have to keep coming back into the same situations in life, so I stick it out and look for what I am supposed to learn from every heartache and hurdle.....but often times it's hard to impossible to grasp what the life lesson is. Certainly nothing wrong with medication to get you through the roughest times, perhaps until your housing situ is settled? Bless you and prayers to you.

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RE: In a Bad Way~A Really Bad Way - 1/4/2008 10:38:14 PM

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Hello Friends,

Here is an update of sorts. First I hope you all had a joyous holiday season. with loved ones and friends and family. My holidays were pretty low key as my 45yr old cousin was found dead of a drug overdose in a local cafe on Dec 20th. It was and is very sad and this was something that his mother said she had anticpated recieving this telephne call for the last 25 yrs. All this and the business of the holiday season in itself distracted me from worrying about my living situation. This Monday is the day that the inspector comes back and even though I choose to trust God, I cannot help but be somewhat afraid. I am fixing to light a candle now. I hope I can link the candle up to a post, but if by chance I am unable to, could you all say a prayer for me and Inspector T Brown, that God impresses on his heart to do the right thing and not cause me to be homeless..

May you all find peace, love and good health and God Blessings in this New Year.

God Bless,

Donna Marie

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RE: In a Bad Way~A Really Bad Way - 1/4/2008 10:58:14 PM

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Dear Donna Marie, I am sorry your holidays were overshadowed by such a sad event! My sympathy to you and your family! Addictions are such a source of pain for all affected!

I'll keep you and the inspector in my prayers that his visit will have a positive result for you, and that you can remain in your home.

Wishing you peace, strength and hope in this New Year,
Love, Edda

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RE: In a Bad Way~A Really Bad Way - 1/5/2008 12:52:32 AM

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Dear Donna Marie,
There is a candle burning for you from me, too, with my prayer that you may be safe.
Love, Juliana

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RE: In a Bad Way~A Really Bad Way - 1/5/2008 9:22:11 AM

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Dear Donna Marie,
I pray that the inspection of your home allows you to stay in it. I will light a candle for you right now.

I also pray that there will be some rays of sunshine in your life this coming year.
Love Jude

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RE: In a Bad Way~A Really Bad Way - 1/5/2008 1:19:55 PM

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Dear Donna Marie
I will add my prayers for you to stay in your home through passing the inspection, I will also add if God's will is that you do not pass that he send you the new home he has planned for you quickly so you are not without shelter, I will then say I am grateful for God's presence and plan for Donna Marie...When I pray in this manner knowing that God has a plan for all of us and our needs life works out. Keep the faith in your plan from God...and here is a quote I found very inspiring
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...."Life begins at the end of your comfort zone"

I too have had those nerve wracking moments when it felt hopeless to change as I pushed and pulled for answers then surrender and acceptance witnessed change and hope I never saw when I was in the stuggle
namaste and peace
Hope coach
Barbara T.

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Our Glory Is Rising Every Time We Fall
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RE: In a Bad Way~A Really Bad Way - 1/5/2008 2:50:31 PM

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Dear Donna Marie,

you are in my prayers and I light a candle too. I hope the heart of Inspector Brown widens and he comes to his senses.

Love,
Barbara

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RE: In a Bad Way~A Really Bad Way - 1/5/2008 5:31:18 PM

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Donna Marie
I too will light a candle for you. I pray that the inspection goes well. I am also sorry about the death of your cousin. Prayers for your family too. I lit the candle under All for you.

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RE: In a Bad Way~A Really Bad Way - 1/5/2008 7:24:35 PM

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Dear Marie,
I hope and pray you have a good year and can feel God's plan in your life. I lit a candle for your housing situation under the group All. Regardless of the outcome of the inspection, I hope you have good housing.
Thankful one

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RE: In a Bad Way~A Really Bad Way - 1/7/2008 1:43:04 PM

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Thank you all for your prayers and responses. Now here is an interesting twist as far as the inspection goes. My brother called the inspector this morning as the inspector requested. Well aparently the inspector was not coming today even though he sent a letter saying he was and confirmed this when he spoke with my brother last month. I really believe that this inspector came to realize that his reasons for my home not passing inspection were unfounded and purly nonsense. The other possibility could be that he is just planning on rescheduling a new date, but I am choosing to believe that God intervened on my behalf.
I thought I could breathe a sigh of relief and I did up until about 10 minutes ago when I got a phone call from my Momma's nursing home. My Momma has had a cough/cold that I noticed last week and was persistant in getting her checked out and prescribed something for the cough. Now today they call me and tell me that they will be ginving her an x ray tomorrow and some swallw. More stress!! Once again, I am trusting God to make everything OK and He will. I have prayed an lit a candle too.

A little background: Up until Nov 2003 I was the primary caretaker for my Sweet Momma for almost 7 years. My Momma has Alzhimers and by 2003 she required 24 hour total care that I was no longer to single handedly provide for her so I had to place her in a place where he needs would be met. I am grateful that it is a local nursinghome and I am able to visit her daily.
Please could you all say a prayer for her, not only is she my Momma, but she and I were always best friends. I have lost her one brain cell at a time. As anyone with a loved one with this horrible desease can tell you, the heartbreak in witnessing personality change and progression of this illness is devastating.

As much as I want to be optimistic, I just can't seem to shake this feeling of dispair, fear and impeding doom. I know that God doesn't give us more than we can handle, but I am back to this sick feeling of hopelessness in my stomach. Meanwhile I will continue to pray for all of you and do my best to believe God.
Thanks and God Bless,

Donna Marie

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RE: In a Bad Way~A Really Bad Way - 1/7/2008 2:02:29 PM

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Dear Donna Marie,
Of course I will pray and light a candle for you and your Momma.
I'm very impressed that you nursed your Momma and still see her daily.
This awful disease was the one I most feared my own Mother having, really I think for my own sake as nothing felt worse than losing her in the way you describe.

Keep positive. (or try your best anyway) We will add our input.
Love Jude

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RE: In a Bad Way~A Really Bad Way - 1/7/2008 2:17:06 PM

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Dear Donna Marie, I am glad to hear that the inspector did not turn up, and I hope he will not, either! Of course I continue praying for you and your dear mother. Another candle will be burning for you. Love and blessings,
Juliana
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RE: In a Bad Way~A Really Bad Way - 1/7/2008 4:00:40 PM

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Dear Donna Marie, I, too, am happy that the inspector was a no-show! I am sorry about your mother. You have been so devoted to her that any change in her condition is especially worrisome to you. The only way I have found to be able to manage is to trust that I get each day the grace I need for that day and leave the tomorrow in God's hands.

I will keep you in my prayers and light a candle for you and your mother,
Much love,
Edda

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