Can You All Please Pray for Me

Re:Can You All Please Pray for Me (aravindhaksha)

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 19:54:31 GMT

On Perseverence...

When a person really desires something, all the universe conspires to help that person realize his dream. ~ Paulo Coelho

Re:Can You All Please Pray for Me (lilsparrow)

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 17:34:09 GMT

A lovely song,
dear Donna Marie . . .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nipVeBAR_m0

♥

Re:Can You All Please Pray for Me (buttington)

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 13:59:40 GMT

Some times I will close my eyes and I will remember something I heard or read and there will be the answer.

If we ask from our hearts, the answer will come.

I do know the song. I'm fond of most of Abba's songs. Soon you will be singing that new song that "Chiquitita" speaks of.

I too find comfort in my fur babies. what would we do without them?Blessings,
Jude

Re:Can You All Please Pray for Me (HurtN4CertN)

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 13:14:15 GMT

Greetings Dear Ones,

Last night I slept well surrounded by uncondtional love. God has a way of doing this in the form of our fubabies. My cat was by my shoulder and my pug was next to me. I was blessed to be awaken by the sound of my 2 parakeets singing praises (they are near by on the dresser) What a wonderful way to wake up and pray. How can one not be grateful when surrounded by love and God's wonderous creation?

I usually pray at night while laying in bed and reflect the day and in the morning I do the same before getting out of bed. There are times when I will pray and meditate on something the night before and the next morning there will be either an answer in the form of wisdom, knowledge or a confirmation. I have been doing this for as far back as I can remember. Some times I will close my eyes and I will remember something I heard or read and there will be the answer.

My Momma and I have always been not only mother and daughter the best of friends and spirtual mentor. She is a strong woman of God and full of faith. Though she never graduated high school she was blessed with wisdom and always had a ay for comforting, guiding me , advising me and showing me the power of faith and forgiveness not only in words but as she lived her life.

Momma seemed to always have a way to calm my fears and lead me in the right direction. See I always had feelings of unworthiness and never felt good enough.
It is amazing how in sync Momma was with my feelings. Growing up I suffered a great deal of abuse at the hand on an aunt and though Momma was aware of this she was being emotionally blackmailed by this aunt who threatened to tell me who my birthmother was. Momma was torn as this aunt surely did treat me as a "dirty little secret". It would help to know that the woman who bore me was one of my Momma's sisters too.
Try as she might, Momma always attepted to protect me from hurt but this was a situation that caused her pain and could do little more that make the best of things.

The reason I share all this is because I want to explain how much of an impact listening to that music had on me. I hadn't though of those old tapes for years, in fact I wasn't even sure they still worked as they were buried in my trunk.

I have to admit when I first found them my immediate thought was to listen to Billie Holiday and have a pity party, but God had other plans because ABBA was my choice lol

I m am not sure that you know the song I am referring to but this is a song that Momma and I would listen to and even in my saddest darkest moments the light of hope would shine through. This was the same feeling I got while listening in my car.

This was good for me. I believe that it is very important to know where you have been in order to know where you are going. For me I must make peace with my past in order to be free. I am not going to say that it is easy because it is not. It seems though for me there is so much past that I have had to grieve that happened over the years having been so sick at 19years old resulting in a total hysterectomy at 22 on Dec 23 and a fiance that left me on Dec 25th of that year because of it. That is just one tiny example as to why it has taken me so long to get to the root of things. Such is life and things have a way of happening when they happen. All I know is I serve a God that is right on time.

I was thinking abouut how I am even grateful for the pain, I do not like it, but I am still grateful for it. I guess the pain serves for me to lift my arms up and surrender and I chose to praise God in gratitude while my arms are lifted because apparently God sees fit for allowing me to experience this to make me who I am and all that I can be. Like refining gold to make it pure, it has to go through fire but after the fire it ends up pure. This is my hope that I will persevere through these trials and come out pure with a renewed spirit.
Why can't I not be able to be joyful even in the midst of calamity?

Now maybe I might look crazy to those walking in darkeness, but what matters most is I am able to count it ALL joy knowing that when all is said and done I will have persevered and will be mature and complete. These are God's promises.

Today I chose to strive to be the best that I can be. A recent situation presented itself which could very well caused me to become angry. I am in awe of the work God is ding in my life because I found myself praying for this person in a way that I have never prayed for someone who has cause so much hurt and damage to me.

I was blessed to feel compassion for this person because they are clearly lacking and obviously do not have any peace in their life. It saddens me to know that there are people in this world that have such self hate that they feel they must present themselves as something they are not in order to feel loved. Their whole life is based on deception and take joy in speading discord, dissensions and deception. These poor souls are walking in darkeness and don't even realise it. Now while I can feel compassion and pray for them they must realise that continuing ths kind of behavior is hurting innocent people and at one point they must be held accountable.
Light will ALWAYS outweigh darkness and for those of us who walk in Truth and Light it is very important to continue shining. I simply will not allow any source of darkness to dull my Light or cause me to take my eyes off the Truth.

Blessings and Gratitude,
Donna Marie

Chiquitita

Chiquitita, tell me whats wrong
Youre enchained by your own sorrow
In your eyes there is no hope for tomorrow
How I hate to see you like this
There is no way you can deny it
I can see that youre oh so sad, so quiet

Chiquitita, tell me the truth
Im a shoulder you can cry on
Your best friend, Im the one you must rely on
You were always sure of yourself
Now I see youve broken a feather
I hope we can patch it up together

Chiquitita, you and I know
How the heartaches come and they go and the scars they�re leaving
You�ll be dancing once again and the pain will end
You will have no time for grieving
Chiquitita, you and I cry
But the sun is still in the sky and shining above you
Let me hear you sing once more like you did before
Sing a new song, chiquitita
Try once more like you did before
Sing a new song, chiquitita

So the walls came tumbling down
And your loves a blown out candle
All is gone and it seems too hard to handle
Chiquitita, tell me the truth
There is no way you can deny it
I see that you�re oh so sad, so quiet

Chiquitita, you and I know
How the heartaches come and they go and the scars they�re leaving
Youll be dancing once again and the pain will end
You will have no time for grieving
Chiquitita, you and I cry
But the sun is still in the sky and shining above you
Let me hear you sing once more like you did before
Sing a new song, chiquitita
Try once more like you did before
Sing a new song, chiquitita
Try once more like you did before
Sing a new song, chiquitita

Re:Can You All Please Pray for Me (buttington)

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 11:58:35 GMT

I agree that to get stuck in the past is not good and can stop us being truly present to the now, but.........

"God gave us memories that we might have roses in December."

J.M Barrie

.....not all memories are bad for us.

With Love,
Jude

Re:Can You All Please Pray for Me (aravindhaksha)

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 11:01:14 GMT

HurtN4CertN

Greetings Dear Ones,
It seems that with each day comes more wisdom. Last night after visiting my Momma at the nursing home I sat on my car praying , meditating and tarrying with the Lord. to some of my Momma's old casette tapes. Oh the blessings of having an older car. I am so grateful to be able to hold close the memories that I shared with my Momma who may not have physically bore me but was so in sync with my feelings. We were and still are best friends and will always be. Love and communication does not stop because someone is non verbal. Momma's loving advice and words will forever reamain with me.
At any rate, I stumbled upon an ABBA tape that belonged to Momma and listened to a song that Momma would always play when she could tell I was down. The name of the song is Chiquitita and somehow while listening with tears streaming down my face I had such a moment of clarity knowing no matter what, things would be alright and was reassured that my pain is just temporary.

Sometimes I just have to trust that some things do not have rhyme or reason and with the best of intentions can not be logically figured out. This is where hope and faith come into play. This is where God intervenes, this is how healing and miracles come about. Sometimes even through the pain I have to sit still and allow God to be God. I have been blessed beyond measure to have been raised in a Christain home that instilled the Truth in me and all that is good. I do not know if I would have been afforded that blessing had I not been adopted.

I can only be accountable for my own actions and all that I can be is who I am. I have chosen the path of Truth in my life and I have to understand that this is not always the popular way to go in a dark world. I can only pray and seek that my actions are a testimony of light in the darkenss.
I will work my way through this pain but I refuse to allow anyone to rob me of joy nor will allow them any claims to my sadness.
I thank God for extracting me out of the hands of those that chose a decietful way regardless of what and who they claim to be.
Perhaps in my desperate need for acceptance I made myself vunerable to be prey of a person with false claims. So be it. The bottomline is that is between them and God and like all of us they too will be held accountable for their actions.
While I do forgive them I can not allow their actions to hold me hostage and prevent me from recieving God's very best for they too are a testimony, a testimony of how I do NOT want to be.
I may be going through the pain and up the rough side of the mountain, but I am doing the best that I can.

Blessings
Donna Marie

Hi,

It is quite comforting to go back to happy memories. But at some point, you got to get yourself to the present and look forward to the future. Being attached to the past will only make you miserable because those happy days are not there any more. I know it is easily said than done. But try slowly to open up to the possibilities that the present offers you.

Do not depend on anyone except the God in you. Dependency spoils love. If one person does not appreciate you, it doesn't mean others will not. Take it as a learning experience and move on.

I do not want to sound like giving advice (advices can be irritating). These are some of my own experiences that I think you may find helpful.

Re:Can You All Please Pray for Me (J1937)

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 09:35:40 GMT

Dear Donna Marie,

Let me join Jude and Sparrow in saying how glad I am to read your latest message. I am reminded of the young woman I told you about, who also felt reconciled to her past and grateful for what she had been granted.

My best wishes are with you.
Juliana

Re:Can You All Please Pray for Me (lilsparrow)

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 07:38:00 GMT

Dear Donna Marie . . .
I am glad that you are finding Grace in your life.
I pray that these moments of tenderness and clarity
stretch out to embrace you through the painful times
with love . . .
sparrow

Re:Can You All Please Pray for Me (buttington)

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 17:32:56 GMT

Sometimes I just have to trust that some things do not have rhyme or reason and with the best of intentions can not be logically figured out.

Dear Donna Marie,
this insight is a huge one, and one we all struggle with, but if we can truly take it on board it frees us up. I think you are working through this amazingly well.

What a blessing you had in your "old car!" I find music can be the link to so much in a spiritual sense. Can you get the tapes transferred to a CD or DVD? It's fairly easy to do these days.
Love does not die. It will still be there between you long after your Momma has gone.

I hope you get many more such Blessings.

With Love,
Jude

Re:Can You All Please Pray for Me (HurtN4CertN)

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 15:06:33 GMT

Greetings Dear Ones,
It seems that with each day comes more wisdom. Last night after visiting my Momma at the nursing home I sat on my car praying , meditating and tarrying with the Lord. to some of my Momma's old casette tapes. Oh the blessings of having an older car. I am so grateful to be able to hold close the memories that I shared with my Momma who may not have physically bore me but was so in sync with my feelings. We were and still are best friends and will always be. Love and communication does not stop because someone is non verbal. Momma's loving advice and words will forever reamain with me.
At any rate, I stumbled upon an ABBA tape that belonged to Momma and listened to a song that Momma would always play when she could tell I was down. The name of the song is Chiquitita and somehow while listening with tears streaming down my face I had such a moment of clarity knowing no matter what, things would be alright and was reassured that my pain is just temporary.

Sometimes I just have to trust that some things do not have rhyme or reason and with the best of intentions can not be logically figured out. This is where hope and faith come into play. This is where God intervenes, this is how healing and miracles come about. Sometimes even through the pain I have to sit still and allow God to be God. I have been blessed beyond measure to have been raised in a Christain home that instilled the Truth in me and all that is good. I do not know if I would have been afforded that blessing had I not been adopted.

I can only be accountable for my own actions and all that I can be is who I am. I have chosen the path of Truth in my life and I have to understand that this is not always the popular way to go in a dark world. I can only pray and seek that my actions are a testimony of light in the darkenss.
I will work my way through this pain but I refuse to allow anyone to rob me of joy nor will allow them any claims to my sadness.
I thank God for extracting me out of the hands of those that chose a decietful way regardless of what and who they claim to be.
Perhaps in my desperate need for acceptance I made myself vunerable to be prey of a person with false claims. So be it. The bottomline is that is between them and God and like all of us they too will be held accountable for their actions.
While I do forgive them I can not allow their actions to hold me hostage and prevent me from recieving God's very best for they too are a testimony, a testimony of how I do NOT want to be.
I may be going through the pain and up the rough side of the mountain, but I am doing the best that I can.

Blessings
Donna Marie

Re:Can You All Please Pray for Me (HurtN4CertN)

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 13:53:35 GMT

What I mean is on the otherside of the pain there is joy. ...Weeping may endure for a night,
but Joy Comes in The Morning.
Psalm 30:5

Hope that helps to explain.
Blessings
Donna Marie

Re:Can You All Please Pray for Me (buttington)

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 11:18:25 GMT

Personally, I'm a firm believer that one can make a heaven on earth.

Me too! I believe that is what all the light-workers (like us) are about. It is possible and we will get there when enough people want it.

I really like your quote "Dream big, but dream with your eyes open"

Blessings,
Jude

Re:Can You All Please Pray for Me (aravindhaksha)

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 11:08:56 GMT

HurtN4CertN

Thank you all very much for your kind words and encouragement. Please know that I am not an ungrateful person. I am even grateful for th epain because I know that God has allowed it in order for me to persevere and on the otherside there will be joy.
I have been blessed in so many other areas of my life and I thank God that I am. Understand and do focus on the positive, but sometimes it is hard when blindsided with deception. I can still be grateful and have pain.
Hopefully when I am able to catch my reath so to speak I will be able to shake the dust off my feet and move on knowing that I gave it my best, that is all I could do.
I am just so grateful that my feet are firmly planted on the ground and I am pretty stable, because I can see how easiily this type of thing can throw someone over the edge. Due to the nature of the site where a majority of those who post there in a last ditched effort to get help.
Thank you all again.
Blessings
Donna Marie

Donna,

I don't know what you mean by "otherside". Do you mean afterlife? Personally, I'm a firm believer that one can make a heaven on earth.

I appreciate your perseverence. The beauty of nature is that the pain wears off with time. Oneday, you will wakeup without any pain and be greeted with eternal joy.

It is really good that you have your feet firmly planted on the ground. Dhirubhai Ambani, an industrialist from India whose story was kind of rags to riches has said, "Dream big, but dream with your eyes open."

Re:Can You All Please Pray for Me (celtic star)

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 07:15:48 GMT

Donna, prayers and blessings in all things for you
Namaste
Glenys

Re:Can You All Please Pray for Me (lilsparrow)

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 07:08:41 GMT

I too,
would like to welcome you to the forum
dear Marsha,
and hope you will return to visit often
with love . . .
sparrow

Re:Can You All Please Pray for Me (lilsparrow)

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 07:07:41 GMT

Dear Donna . . .
You seem to have some wise insight into your pain.
This can truly help you sort out what is real and what is not.
Prayers continue for you
for a calm and peaceful healing heart
with love . . .
sparrow

Re:Can You All Please Pray for Me (Hildegard)

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 00:10:57 GMT

Welcome to the forum, Marsha!

Thank you for your compassion for Donna Marie and your offer of support!

I hope you will tell us more about yourself and share with us your experience!

With every good wish and love,
Edda

Re:Can You All Please Pray for Me (buttington)

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 17:35:58 GMT

I refuse to give any person place, web site or thing enough power for my current pain.

My thoughts too Donna. You are worth more.

Blessings,
Jude

Re:Can You All Please Pray for Me (bambam8888)

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 16:42:43 GMT

Hon im so sorry things are going the way that they are.Im here if you wannt to talk.Im adopted also.And i know how it feels.I have 3 sisters and brothers that i havent met.And would give anything to. You are a great person i can tell by your messages on here.You are a great person to indure all that you are going threw.I dont have much.But i can help you a little if you need it.I dont have many friends either.

Re:Can You All Please Pray for Me (bambam8888)

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 16:36:10 GMT

Hon you had a site listed at the bottom of your message.That said WISHUPONAHERO.COM .So thats where i went. I"M sorry if you took something the wrong way.I was just so sorry that things went bad sometimes.I dont no what sites you are on. I just went to the one that was posted on your forum message.Have a great evening.And i will be praying for you. And hopeing that things will get better for you.