Can you light a candle for me

Would please do me do me a favor and light me a candle? I lost a baby due to miscarriage this past Monday April 6. I has just found out that I was 6 weeks pregnant. We found out by ultrasound and we found the baby and the baby heartbeart. We were not expecting this but we were all excited about the baby even the kids. I had started bleeding about twice once I found about about my pregnancy. I was so scared that I would loose the baby that I have not said a whole lot to anyone. My worst nightmare came true. This past weekend I was soooooo sick and nausiated. I just thought I had morning sickness or I had a stomach virus. I went to go to the bathroon Monday and that is when that I noticed I was bleeding real bad . I then told my hubby I was loosing the baby. I then went with my sister to the doctor and by the time I got there I was bleeding very bad with big clots. I then had my ultrasound and I told the lady not to wait till I saw the doctor but to tell me if my baby was dead. She then told me that yes my baby heart had quit beating. She then said that it would be awhile before I would deliver the baby so she brought the doctor in and the doctor said that I would have to have an D/C and D/E done. They could not get me in till WEdnesday for my surgery so they sent me home with pain pills. Well Tuesday afternoon came and I started contracting lots and I was in alot of pain. I then started passing even bigger clots so I called the doctor and I was rushed to the doctor afraid that I was going to bleed out. When I got there I went in the bathroom and there my baby was born. I still ended up having to have the surgery though as I was bleeding do much and passing so many clots and I still had tissue up in my body. So, here I am today writing this with such a broken heart. As many of you know, this is my 3rd miscarriage and it doesn't get any easier. I am so very mad at everyone and everything right now. So many people have said I am sorry and that is nice of them but that is not going to bring my babies I lost back!!!!!Alot of people say that I should not be upset as I have more kids at home but you know every baby and child is different. I love all my kids whether they be my step-kids or my biological kids. I will always love my kids and will always love my angel babies that I have lost. I am so heart broken as it has been so hard telling and explaining this to my kids. They already had a name picked out and every thing.  The kids have taken it very hard as you can imagine as well as this is the first time my hubby has had to deal with this. Please just light a candle and keep us in your thoughts as we try to get through this very hard time in our lives. It has been so hard writing this post. Thanks for reading this and if I don't answer your post for a few days it is not that I am agnoring you, it is that I am trying to sort things out. Thanks again for all the support that ya'll have given me in the past. It's friends like you that help the world go round. With love....

"LIFE IS NOT MEASURED IN THE BREATHS WE TAKE, IT IS MEASURED IN HOW MANY MOMENTS THAT TAKE OUR BREATH AWAY!"